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wow. that was the most intense phone conversation i have ever had. more than anything i want to rewind a few days and be ok with the posse and mdub and katie. im ok now...i really am but i dont think jade and jbrock are AHHH by tomorrow the posse better be ok! and i think it will be.
i talked to mdub and told him how i felt...and by the end of the conversation i was saying what i actually felt...even though i didnt realize thats how i felt til it came out. i finally ended up telling him that i didnt want to be second to katie and he better not put me on the back burner...i didnt need that again. it was weird. but things will work out...they are all my best friends.
i think we all need to sit and chat.
other news...im going home tomorrow for the summer/for good. and i have a final tomorrow and i have to pack my room but i spent most the night fighting with michael and cryin to jade.
so off to studying.
i talked to mdub and told him how i felt...and by the end of the conversation i was saying what i actually felt...even though i didnt realize thats how i felt til it came out. i finally ended up telling him that i didnt want to be second to katie and he better not put me on the back burner...i didnt need that again. it was weird. but things will work out...they are all my best friends.
i think we all need to sit and chat.
other news...im going home tomorrow for the summer/for good. and i have a final tomorrow and i have to pack my room but i spent most the night fighting with michael and cryin to jade.
so off to studying.