*i smile*
i've been wondering where my emotions have come from recently... i mean, i know where they come from, but more "why haven't i felt this before"... i suffer from a fluttering heart... the butterflies in my stomach get to the point sometimes where i think i might just fly away with them... and the nervous anticipation i often feel is sometimes so overwhelming i mentally slap myself in order to bring my head back down to earth. i've recently discovered something else i've always known (if that could, in any way, make sense) Life truly is beautiful. i used to wake up and think about what i could possibly do just to get through the day, but the true optimist in me has finally reappeared again. i imagine this will be to my own detriment... but shucks... hehe. this year i have really truly learned to appreciate and fall in love with the little things in my life. for example: ali and i went prom dress shopping today and as we stood admiring eachother's gown we had tried on we looked at eachother in the mirror, squealed, and started jumping up and down giggling. who else could i have done that with and not felt like a complete ass? though little, and not truly significant, that is a memory i will always hold, because it was just pure thrill of the situation and utter exuberance. thanks ali *wink*