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It's not so often that I sit here and think to myself for a long while this late at night. I've been thinking of many things about myself and the people I choose to surround myself with. I'm sure that I've made bad decisions in my lifetime, but who hasn't? There was a time in my life that I would sit and feel sorry for myself if I was sad or angry or upset. I've learned otherwise. I can't just sit here and dwell on the past. I have to move on. I have my entire life ahead of me. No matter how dumb or cliche this sounds I really do have to be strong and assertive about things. I look at things that I used to take so seriously, but now could care less about. Sometimes you just have to let go of things that could mean so much to you. In the big picture of the world, that thing you hold so dear is an insignificant spec. It's better in the longrun if you let things go occassionally even if it does hurt. I'm going to fall many times in my life...why dwell on one? I'm sitting here thinking of my true friends and I know exactly who they are. I used to have a shit load of friends and I used to enjoy that, but I don't need that. I have my close friends that I can trust and care for. I'm tired of walking from day to day thinking of what I can do so that I won't upset [people]. I need to be happy with myself and the things I do and expose myself to. Eventually I will. Well I think I better go...I'm done being dumb for the night. Sweet dreams all.