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Pushing away people who mean so much to me,
seems to be a constant thing for me.
Is it because I realize that all people will leave,
and I don't want to get hurt?
Is it because I don't want to open up to people
because I don't want to be seen as weak?
Is it because I think i'm not good enough to be
cared about?
I'm not quite sure what it is,
all I know is that now when I need someone,
I'm all alone.
Alone in a quiet, dark room trying with ALL of my might,
not to break down and cry.
Trying not to think of EVERYTHING that has gone wrong lately.
I find it harder then ever to do this tonight.
Contemplating useing freaking sucks!
I don't use and I fall apart,
i'm alone in this world and that is one thing that has never let me down.
I do use and I lose friends,
and I fall back into the same pattern of my past.
I don't know what to do anymore,
but I have a feeling i'm gonna do it.
I give up.
seems to be a constant thing for me.
Is it because I realize that all people will leave,
and I don't want to get hurt?
Is it because I don't want to open up to people
because I don't want to be seen as weak?
Is it because I think i'm not good enough to be
cared about?
I'm not quite sure what it is,
all I know is that now when I need someone,
I'm all alone.
Alone in a quiet, dark room trying with ALL of my might,
not to break down and cry.
Trying not to think of EVERYTHING that has gone wrong lately.
I find it harder then ever to do this tonight.
Contemplating useing freaking sucks!
I don't use and I fall apart,
i'm alone in this world and that is one thing that has never let me down.
I do use and I lose friends,
and I fall back into the same pattern of my past.
I don't know what to do anymore,
but I have a feeling i'm gonna do it.
I give up.