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well i got out of school early today, cause well, i have extreme depression. Today I went to math(2nd perioud) and went to the bathroom cause i felt so shitty, called my mom to ask her if she can come pick me up, and out of no where i broke down, and befor i hung up on my mom i said "I hate my life, I'm going to kill myself" and i didn't even say that though! it wasnt me...it was someone else, but came out of my mouth. so i went back to class crying and my teacher was worried so she told me to go to the councelers and that shell check on me next period! so i went to councelers...AND THERE WAS BRITTANY! i hated that she had to see me like this! anyway, i told the counseler, and my mom came to pick me up...and i might go to ridgeveiw for awhile, cause i want to...cause i want to quite having suicidal visions, and hearing voices telling my to kill myself...cause it sucks...and ive had all my life...i just relize it more when im depressed...but ive never been this depressed befor...