Rise and Shine...it's 5:43am and the Assholes are calling...

Aug 28, 2006 05:47

I hate it when you wake up and you start thinking about shit, so you can't get back to sleep. Your brain is too active...
A few days ago, I met up with an old friend from High School. This guy I knew for a year or two...sorta shy, very sweet. I always wondered what happened to him and then, one day I see him on Myspace. I was like, wow...long time no see. So, we chat a bit, the normal getting caught up bull shit. He seemed funny and wanted to meet up again. I find out that he had a crush on me in High School, which was a nice little ego boast...and remembered back if I liked him at all. I remember thinking he was a nice guy, I don't see why I didn't. Anyway, he asks to see a photo, So I post some on myspace, though I explained that I wasn't as thin as I was in HS he still wanted to see my "Goal" picture.

My favorite picture in the whole world...of Jenn and Me in Spain in 2000 right before graduation. We were both thin and beautiful. I love that picture, it also represents I think the best year of my life, so far. I was in love, and didn't have a care in the world. Just with good friends and the hope of the future infront of me. The photo was up earlier and I just reposted it for him, I don't really know why. Maybe It's my desperate search for mr. right...though I seriously didn't think that anything would happen at all with this guy...I truly believed we were just meeting to catch up. It was with this mindset, that I was going to meet him for a drink and catch up a few days ago. Not only did I find it odd, that I had to contact him on the day prior to our meeting, but when he suggested meeting across town, I was a bit taken back. That's a bit far..but I was up for it...then he told me he wanted to meet at 9:30 that night. I thought, SHIT that's sorta late, but I started thinking am I just being old. So, I sucked it up and was ready at 8:00 and got a message...saying to meet closer to our side of town. I guess he figured catching up with me...was more important then mystery beer night at the other bar???

When I make plans...I make plans and try to be on top of them...I don't make plans with someone, and hope that the rest of my life doesn't get in the way.

Anyway, we did meet up, and at first it was nice...just getting to know a old friend again,...until I started getting to know this old friend again. Not only did he ask a bunch of selfserving questions, that the only goal of asking them, seemed to be for fluffing his ego. He thinks his hot shit now, compared to HS. So far, I think the contrary.

Then, he comes back with- In HS you were so cute, I really had the hots for you....but but....after seeing that photo of you (the Spain one) I swear I wasn't going to compair or judge...............I mean......You've always had a cute face.........I need to be with someone that is dedicated to going to the gym. Of course for themselves and not for me.

WHATEVER!

I didn't go there looking for him the be attracted to me...but now that it's clear he's not!!!! that's fine with me. Tell you the truth love, your not all that and bag of chips!! LOL

Ya know....I have been going to the gym...and it's been for myself....if there was a guy out there, that wanted me...gym or no gym...Someone let me know...cause all I see are assholes!

In London, I'd just be walking down the street, and men would start chatting me up, and offer to buy me a drink. I looked now just as I did then. ALL men here are shallow assholes!!!!! I'm an average weight for god sake!...WTF.

Don't worry...I know all the men that "require" thin big breasted bimbos....will become what the detest in the end. Big breasted bums demanding beer from there lazy chair...ALONE.

PS. If that old 'friend' actually does read this (Which I doubt)...Get a clue...and also "Just say NO to drugs" it's not as attractive as you think it is!
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