Stupid Cassie
Last night I went out with kerri to see Justin, at lakeshore, Anchor bay was wreastling them. So we went to see shawn, but he didn't have anyone to wreastle. hmm I should relly learn how to spell that (lol), Well the meet ended really early so we went picked up shawn, then head out to see Joes BASEBALL GAME!!!! YAY, BASEBALL, i was back home, I love baseball...the ride home was fun, We all talked and it was good.
Alot has been on my mind latly....you want to know the truth...I'm really fucked up in my thoughts, i ahve no idea what to think anymore... oh man here we go.
I should be saying this on here, for the fact i know this will get back to my parents, but oh well i want the person to know, I have never lied to my parents, but now all i do is lie about stupid shit..i hate it... the funny part i end up telling my mom that night, so t really doesn't matter if this does get back to my parents..... why the fuck am i doing this, what the hell am i thinking??????
I'm really don't know anymore, but i know i'll get hurt again but i keep going back for more.. Oh yeah and all the 6 people that look at me and tell me i'm stupid will just sit there and say"we told you so"
but thats what i want you to do, so please do it when that times comes.
what i hate more is, i want to tell themin person all the things that i thinking,like right now....but i won't do it online or on the phoen. Cause i hate it still, we just act like nothing is wrong and do all the drama on the phone. well i'm being stupid now..this is the time i just think about everything and my thoughts just get so messed up...i like how things are but not all of it...it just so confusing... anyways i don't want to say anymore, this might get me in troble already. lol
what a friend said to me: you try to make yourself happy...just let things happend...the worse thing you do is you prevent yourself from being happy if you just let things happend things would be much better
*****i really liked it, but sometimes its hard for me to do*****
Alot has been on my mind latly....you want to know the truth...I'm really fucked up in my thoughts, i ahve no idea what to think anymore... oh man here we go.
I should be saying this on here, for the fact i know this will get back to my parents, but oh well i want the person to know, I have never lied to my parents, but now all i do is lie about stupid shit..i hate it... the funny part i end up telling my mom that night, so t really doesn't matter if this does get back to my parents..... why the fuck am i doing this, what the hell am i thinking??????
I'm really don't know anymore, but i know i'll get hurt again but i keep going back for more.. Oh yeah and all the 6 people that look at me and tell me i'm stupid will just sit there and say"we told you so"
but thats what i want you to do, so please do it when that times comes.
what i hate more is, i want to tell themin person all the things that i thinking,like right now....but i won't do it online or on the phoen. Cause i hate it still, we just act like nothing is wrong and do all the drama on the phone. well i'm being stupid now..this is the time i just think about everything and my thoughts just get so messed up...i like how things are but not all of it...it just so confusing... anyways i don't want to say anymore, this might get me in troble already. lol
what a friend said to me: you try to make yourself happy...just let things happend...the worse thing you do is you prevent yourself from being happy if you just let things happend things would be much better
*****i really liked it, but sometimes its hard for me to do*****