Once again

[cassieann]

I was planing to stop writing, but instead I just hope people don't read my journal anymore. (if their were any) Once again it's a time when I'm sitting around and is just thinking about things. And of course I stumbled across some things that make me upset. I know the things that I read shouldn't but it does sometimes. Maybe its for the fact I hate Christmas and that all starts tomarrow. But my big thing is how I never get credit for anything I do. Yeah I know this sounds so selfish but I just get down sometimes on it. There are like only a dozen of people that I care about in this world anymore. But there is only one person that can make me laugh and smile, the most anymore. I feel i'm drifting from everyone but this one person. There was a thing I was reading and it made me just smile cause it was exactly how i'm felling. **Don't go for looks, they can decieve. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.** Anyways there was something else that I liked...we all know I don't feel lucky on having good friends, even my brother tells me that i'm even stupid to think that once...and that he wish he could somewhat have what I have in my frienships. but then I read this and thought well I have two very good friends that I can feel that I have with **The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on the porch and swing with, never say a word, the walk away feeling it was the best conversation you've ever had.** When I first read this all I could think was...Kentucky...oh well...I'm going to bed..hoping that I can sleep all the way to Thursday. Maybe I expect to much from my friends. That my fault and no one elses.

This is the fucking devil

But some reason it's like a friend to me