I escaped to a theatre to see a girl with long blonde hair
I wish I could put everything I ever loved or listened to into a tiny little box and put it under my bed and keep it out of reach of everyone else. I hate when I hear a song playing on the radio that I found ages ago, and I just wish I could keep it to myself and not have it be heard by anyone else. I want to keep every memory and every wonderful thought that I've ever had, just so when I start to forget I can open that box and see it, and remember it and relive it. Sometimes I wish I was adam sandler in click, so I could fast forward and pause and rewind everything. It would be so great, to just go back to child hood, or go towards the future in hopes that the shit pit you're in get's better. I don't know, I think a lot and it leaves me time to kind of...think of these really weird thoughts about how everything would be awesome if you had a remote that controlled your life. A somewhat retarded movie premisis, but for life, it's just perfect. But I'm afraid if everyone had one it would just be like it is now, but worse.
And I watched that movie Lie With Me. It's basically a soft core porno, but serioulsy, such an amazing movie. It reminds me of my life, in some aspics, just not as much sex, and uh, black guys, and shit. If you have yet to see it though, I really recommend watching it.
Also, sex and emotions just ruin everything. No matter how sweet it is and how awesome you can feel with certain emotions, it's just ruins so much of everything. I know this sounds like a little teen angst rant, but I'm not trying to make it like that, It just sucks. The whole thing sucks. When someone has sex with another person it's just sex. It's nothing more. But when you attach feelings to it but the other person doesn't want those feelings to be felt, it just ruins it. It ruins your relationship (friendship, boyfriend, girlfriend, etc.), It ruins your feelings, and it makes you feel completely low.
Blahblahblah. I'm done ranting about basically nothing that anyone understand, but ayeah. And if I spelt a ton of shit wrong, my bee, I didn't feel like checking my spelling. haaaaaarhar.