Dreams and Pain
Between my stupid dreams and the machine it is keeping me awake almost full time. UGH Thought of not sleeping and lack of sleep are showing up in the temp taking. When I've not slept well it is a higher temp. Sleep fine and it is okay and about normal. Just glad they are not nightmares yet.
I have woke up Paul the past three days when I have taken my temp. UGH I don't like that. He must be getting VERY tired of that by now. I'm just trying to deal with everything. I hurt really bad yesterday. It is the stupid small things that are killing me. I don't have enough something to keep me going. I ran out of Tylenol at work already. It is amazing that I still take as little as I do. The tears are starting to come back from the pain. I almost want to stop trying for kids and just go back on meds, but I have worked to hard for this. I'm not going to give up any time soon. I just have to keep at it and hope that I don't cry too much at work. They dislike me enough already. I need to find another job. Today I start searching, will I find anything, who knows.
I have woke up Paul the past three days when I have taken my temp. UGH I don't like that. He must be getting VERY tired of that by now. I'm just trying to deal with everything. I hurt really bad yesterday. It is the stupid small things that are killing me. I don't have enough something to keep me going. I ran out of Tylenol at work already. It is amazing that I still take as little as I do. The tears are starting to come back from the pain. I almost want to stop trying for kids and just go back on meds, but I have worked to hard for this. I'm not going to give up any time soon. I just have to keep at it and hope that I don't cry too much at work. They dislike me enough already. I need to find another job. Today I start searching, will I find anything, who knows.