A Life Less Ordinary
I got back to school, after talking to Willow. I guess things in theory should be okay now. Avasa's stable again, and I got a flash off of a guy in the dorm, and it didn't near kill me, so I guess she was right. Something about building up an immunity or stabalizing each other...I'm not sure it sounded kind of technical to me and that's not really my area.
But either way we're okay. I guess we both got a little more powerful with this, even if we have evened out. I noticed that when it happens for me, it's stronger, more focused, less vague. Still nothing like being able to direct it, and it's still apparently random, but there's a difference. Which is fine, just as long as it isn't making my head explode. I can still feel a sort of connection with him I guess, it's hard to explain. I can't put it into words. Something's there, but then again, it could be my imgagination.
It's weird being back at school. I wasn't gone long, but it felt like a lifetime. I kinda miss him already. Which I'm just ignoring. I have to move on, here. So I'll just try not to think about it as much as possible. We're supposed to be being frineds and all, but I can't help but wonder if that'll change now that he doesn't need me. I think I'll just stay clear for now. See if he makes an effort to see me at all, or if we're going our seperate ways. I don't want to push anything, particularly with my feelings making it all awkward. I wouldn't blame him if he did want to fade off quietly. Who needs some stupid dreamy eyed fan-girl hanging around? Especially when you're deleriously happy with your girlfriend? (I still wonder about the drawing though. That he did of me...nevermind.)
So anyways, I'm back at school, playing major catch-up, and trying to move on. Here's hoping it works for me. I'll think positively. It will work. I'll be okay. I'll be okay. I'll be okay. Ak! Late for class!
But either way we're okay. I guess we both got a little more powerful with this, even if we have evened out. I noticed that when it happens for me, it's stronger, more focused, less vague. Still nothing like being able to direct it, and it's still apparently random, but there's a difference. Which is fine, just as long as it isn't making my head explode. I can still feel a sort of connection with him I guess, it's hard to explain. I can't put it into words. Something's there, but then again, it could be my imgagination.
It's weird being back at school. I wasn't gone long, but it felt like a lifetime. I kinda miss him already. Which I'm just ignoring. I have to move on, here. So I'll just try not to think about it as much as possible. We're supposed to be being frineds and all, but I can't help but wonder if that'll change now that he doesn't need me. I think I'll just stay clear for now. See if he makes an effort to see me at all, or if we're going our seperate ways. I don't want to push anything, particularly with my feelings making it all awkward. I wouldn't blame him if he did want to fade off quietly. Who needs some stupid dreamy eyed fan-girl hanging around? Especially when you're deleriously happy with your girlfriend? (I still wonder about the drawing though. That he did of me...nevermind.)
So anyways, I'm back at school, playing major catch-up, and trying to move on. Here's hoping it works for me. I'll think positively. It will work. I'll be okay. I'll be okay. I'll be okay. Ak! Late for class!