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so i was going thru all of my old livejournal entries and b/c it is still how i feel im going to put them in again...
July 12th-
so i was thinking today...and if you really think about it...life is just like a giant soap opera. every one is supposed to play a certain role. i mean if you think about it, everyone in the world has certain people who threw out their life they are supposed to meet and have a certain relationship with. certain people are supposed to be with other certain people. some people are supposed to play the "perfect" role is which they get everything they've ever wanted, some people get the "working" role in which they have to work extra hard to get what they want, some people get the "sucks to be you" role where you have a shit life...but we are supposed to love certain people and certain people are supposed to love us back, we are supposed to hate certain people, and have certain people hate us, we are supposed to meet certain people and forget certain people. i dont know why i was thinking of this...it probably doesnt even make sense to anyone. all i have to say is that i have accepted the fact that no matter how i feel about someone if they dont feel the same way back then i just have to realize that i wasnt supposed to play that role in their life and they weren't meant to play that role in mine, no matter how much that hurts. so i guess sometimes i just want to play a different role, so then i can have what i want. yea...we should defiantly get to pick our roles....
guess mine is not the first heart broken, my eyes are not the first to cry,I'm not the first to know, there's just no gettin' over you, hello I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around and wait for you, but baby can't you see, there's nothin' else
for me to do, I'm hopelessly devoted to you. but now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you. My head is saying "fool, forget him", my heart is saying "don't let go", hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do, I'm hopelessly devoted to you. but now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you.
thank you jessica crowley, you know exactly how i feel and i thank you so much for talking with me and helping me. and thank you jacqui, i know you and alex aren't together anymore, but you will still be like my sister...forever. i love you.
I miss my best friend kadie...
July 12th-
so i was thinking today...and if you really think about it...life is just like a giant soap opera. every one is supposed to play a certain role. i mean if you think about it, everyone in the world has certain people who threw out their life they are supposed to meet and have a certain relationship with. certain people are supposed to be with other certain people. some people are supposed to play the "perfect" role is which they get everything they've ever wanted, some people get the "working" role in which they have to work extra hard to get what they want, some people get the "sucks to be you" role where you have a shit life...but we are supposed to love certain people and certain people are supposed to love us back, we are supposed to hate certain people, and have certain people hate us, we are supposed to meet certain people and forget certain people. i dont know why i was thinking of this...it probably doesnt even make sense to anyone. all i have to say is that i have accepted the fact that no matter how i feel about someone if they dont feel the same way back then i just have to realize that i wasnt supposed to play that role in their life and they weren't meant to play that role in mine, no matter how much that hurts. so i guess sometimes i just want to play a different role, so then i can have what i want. yea...we should defiantly get to pick our roles....
guess mine is not the first heart broken, my eyes are not the first to cry,I'm not the first to know, there's just no gettin' over you, hello I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around and wait for you, but baby can't you see, there's nothin' else
for me to do, I'm hopelessly devoted to you. but now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you. My head is saying "fool, forget him", my heart is saying "don't let go", hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do, I'm hopelessly devoted to you. but now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you.
thank you jessica crowley, you know exactly how i feel and i thank you so much for talking with me and helping me. and thank you jacqui, i know you and alex aren't together anymore, but you will still be like my sister...forever. i love you.
I miss my best friend kadie...