Across the Room
I saw him across the room tonight. I'm not gonna lie, I was looking for him. He was all over some girl, and immediately I was pissed off even more. The more I think about what has been taken from me, the angrier I get. No one will tell me what he is up to and how he is doing and it just makes me think that he's not paying for what he did at all and that he's just happy I'm gone, but I want him to feel ashamed for how he treated me. He should feel like the dirt that earthworms poop out. I want him to hurt, and I don't think he is, but whatever, that just shows how he really is. I'm so hurt. I wanted to punch the innocent (and sweet really) guy in front of me in line. I've been doing wonderfully the past couple of weeks...even gone on a date or two, but seeing him that way today just made me sick. I don't know. I'm just so hurt and pissed off and starting to miss having someone I can tell absolutely everything to, although I'm very lucky because I have so many friends that here for me and occupy my time. I just want to confron him again, but it will do no good. He will be how he will be. If he can be happy with what he did to me, then that's fine, but I don't see how any human being with a conscience could be.