soooo tired
today is chai and i's 4 month anniversary.. its so strange.. like, i still feel single sometimes.. not in a bad way, like a guy that gives me space? thats unheard of ;) its great because we can both actually and genuinely say we love each other... scary huh? i do love this man.. i really do.. he compliments me so well.. i just don't want to lose him.. he says i worry too much about him and us, but i'm not used to a guy hanging out very long anymore.. after the whole "asshole" incident, which, i've told him all about, its hard for me to trust that anyone, whether it be a boyfriend or a new friend, just wants to be around me because i'm me. i'm insecure, i know.. but the people i love always leave, and i don't wanna fuck this up.. because dammit, i love that crazy fucker!