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I love it when I wake up in the mornings and sit in my chair. Sofie is always so active during this time and I kind of feel like this is our "bonding" time. She just kicks and squirms and I laugh and watch my belly move all over the place. I play her music sometimes, too.
It's hard to believe that she will probably be in my arms next week. Don't get me wrong, I am READY to not be pregnant anymore, but I didn't want to have to give birth under these circumstances. Leave it up to my body to not be a good place for a baby. I don't drink, do drugs, smoke, but for some reason my body is sending toxins to her. It makes me feel really crappy, but as long as she is healthy I am okay.
Pregnancy is really such a weird thing. I have never really been the "nurturing" type. I didn't even know if I wanted children. As soon as I heard her heartbeat and saw her up on that screen none of that mattered. She is the single most important thing to me and she isn't even out of the womb yet. I just can't wait to meet her and hold her. I just want to give her the world and it's depressing knowing that I can't.
I don't know. I am going to go eat some food and feed this growing five pound baby inside of me.
It's hard to believe that she will probably be in my arms next week. Don't get me wrong, I am READY to not be pregnant anymore, but I didn't want to have to give birth under these circumstances. Leave it up to my body to not be a good place for a baby. I don't drink, do drugs, smoke, but for some reason my body is sending toxins to her. It makes me feel really crappy, but as long as she is healthy I am okay.
Pregnancy is really such a weird thing. I have never really been the "nurturing" type. I didn't even know if I wanted children. As soon as I heard her heartbeat and saw her up on that screen none of that mattered. She is the single most important thing to me and she isn't even out of the womb yet. I just can't wait to meet her and hold her. I just want to give her the world and it's depressing knowing that I can't.
I don't know. I am going to go eat some food and feed this growing five pound baby inside of me.