My first entry (of this life)
No food today
(cept for half a stick of gum)
No food yesterday
(cept for 2 mints)
And the day before that...
well I purged, lets just leave it at that.
117
short term target; 115
This feels good
like the good ole days
However, this morning was tough. I woke up feeling fine (would have done some simple exercises if I had the time) I went to school feeling average and what not but halfway through 1st period I felt awful. I could hardly move and my fingers started feeling numb. I considered going to the nurses' but I didnt have the energy. Luckily, I feel asleep for like 5 minutes and woke up slightly better.
This happened to me last year but if memory serves me right, it was worse. I think I just needed some water (don't worry I'm drinking some now)
I hope my boyfriend comes over tonight, (even though he was just over here monday but anly cause I sorta complained that I havent seen him in awhile) he really helps even though he doesnt know it. I'm angry at him (secretly) for not paying as much attention to me as he used to, and this is partially why I'm getting back into this old routine. I figure, if he wont pay attention to me, maybe other guys will. Okay, its sad that I do this for attention but, I'm only human and at least I admitt to wanting attention.
Alright I'm out of water
would it be bad if I drank iced tea? or Gatorade?
(cept for half a stick of gum)
No food yesterday
(cept for 2 mints)
And the day before that...
well I purged, lets just leave it at that.
117
short term target; 115
This feels good
like the good ole days
However, this morning was tough. I woke up feeling fine (would have done some simple exercises if I had the time) I went to school feeling average and what not but halfway through 1st period I felt awful. I could hardly move and my fingers started feeling numb. I considered going to the nurses' but I didnt have the energy. Luckily, I feel asleep for like 5 minutes and woke up slightly better.
This happened to me last year but if memory serves me right, it was worse. I think I just needed some water (don't worry I'm drinking some now)
I hope my boyfriend comes over tonight, (even though he was just over here monday but anly cause I sorta complained that I havent seen him in awhile) he really helps even though he doesnt know it. I'm angry at him (secretly) for not paying as much attention to me as he used to, and this is partially why I'm getting back into this old routine. I figure, if he wont pay attention to me, maybe other guys will. Okay, its sad that I do this for attention but, I'm only human and at least I admitt to wanting attention.
Alright I'm out of water
would it be bad if I drank iced tea? or Gatorade?