yeah... well work SUCKED
I got there in a really really shitty mood. Ya wanna know the worst part about that.. I had no reason for it. Well I had a reason, but no one would understand. I was upset over Andrew. I really really dont know how to take this all. Yeah.. I enjoy it.. and I can just take it as it is...but ya know.. when you really want something. Sometimes I just want to call but I dont. Ya know why.. Because I dont wanna over do it. Like I ALWAYS DO. even in a friendship. I really wanted to call him and tell him about my sucky night at work...doesnt matter that I think he is at a play. so I wouldnt interrupt him anyway. Well I wanted to tell him.. that I got a table and I wasnt suppose to. well I was told that I wouldnt.. and I didnt greet them for god knows how long. And well I guess 60 bucks is good for me. and on a slow night.. Ontop of it all I had to back close.. I suck at it.. PLUS.. I was back closing with someone who was worse than me.. AND and..... she didnt care.. she was eating.. and I had already started.. pissed me ofF!!!!
so yeah.. work is getting still a little suckier... WEll sarah is having a tough time.. She is dealing with her dad home at the moment.. I think he wants to stay.. but I hope he doesnt. I will be home this weekend... Good.. I have a date!!! yeah... I am excited.. Any reason to get dressed up and be complimented, well ,, It has my name all over it. and I think I have my weekend all planned. out.. I got asked out tonight.. I might take him up. Not sure.. It would leave my time kinda limited... so anyways....
I am feeling better about myself.. good thing I know.. but I am also not sure about how I am gonna handle andrew. I dont think he knows what he wants.. So our postion has switched..
Before it was me who would make the effort. It was me, whowanted to talk to him.. And now I am somehow holding back.. maybe just growing up a little is a good way to put it.
he is takin the effort to talk to me.... which is great.. I love talkin to him.. even bull shitting.. It is soo fun.. It is like that is perfect.. I think he said it the other day.. "there is nothing unsaid between you and me".. I love it... I've never had that before.. Someone who always wanted to listen. let alone really did.. and I always want to talk to him ... always... Doesnt matter that our lives are hundreds of miles apart.. We SOMEHOW still invite the other into it. I have had my share of friendships long distance... and none of them are like this. We grow apart because we arent living in the same time.. same place.. well With andrew.. NO MATTER WHERE HE HAS BEEN.. I still always want to hear.. We just.. I dont know.. hard to explain.. no one else seems to really understand it.. My friend the other day said .. " Dont get back with him... he sounds like a punk".. I was bewildered... How she got that impression I dont know.. but obviously it was from me.. where else right.. but god.... I just seem him as someone who .... I always smile at/with/for. doesnt matter if he is being a total jerk.. he is just someone who I really smile about..................
so yeah.. work is getting still a little suckier... WEll sarah is having a tough time.. She is dealing with her dad home at the moment.. I think he wants to stay.. but I hope he doesnt. I will be home this weekend... Good.. I have a date!!! yeah... I am excited.. Any reason to get dressed up and be complimented, well ,, It has my name all over it. and I think I have my weekend all planned. out.. I got asked out tonight.. I might take him up. Not sure.. It would leave my time kinda limited... so anyways....
I am feeling better about myself.. good thing I know.. but I am also not sure about how I am gonna handle andrew. I dont think he knows what he wants.. So our postion has switched..
Before it was me who would make the effort. It was me, whowanted to talk to him.. And now I am somehow holding back.. maybe just growing up a little is a good way to put it.
he is takin the effort to talk to me.... which is great.. I love talkin to him.. even bull shitting.. It is soo fun.. It is like that is perfect.. I think he said it the other day.. "there is nothing unsaid between you and me".. I love it... I've never had that before.. Someone who always wanted to listen. let alone really did.. and I always want to talk to him ... always... Doesnt matter that our lives are hundreds of miles apart.. We SOMEHOW still invite the other into it. I have had my share of friendships long distance... and none of them are like this. We grow apart because we arent living in the same time.. same place.. well With andrew.. NO MATTER WHERE HE HAS BEEN.. I still always want to hear.. We just.. I dont know.. hard to explain.. no one else seems to really understand it.. My friend the other day said .. " Dont get back with him... he sounds like a punk".. I was bewildered... How she got that impression I dont know.. but obviously it was from me.. where else right.. but god.... I just seem him as someone who .... I always smile at/with/for. doesnt matter if he is being a total jerk.. he is just someone who I really smile about..................