for me... not anyone else.. just me
I woke up this morning.. didnt have anything planned. I still dont. I didnt have school because of the holiday. I didnt have to work tonight.. So I still dont have anything. I also dont have many friends, so my options are usually little to none. Well it doesnt matter, and I have finally figured that out. I got dressed, in something I like. Doesnt matter that I dont have any plans. I can finally make myself happy. One way or another. I am getting there. I think I know what I WANT... (always an iffy subject). but even if I dont. I will soon. I dont need anything.. or anyone. to make me feel good or be happy. I am content being me. FINALLY. I have always been, but it isnt a very fashionable thing. You must always have a significant other, you must always have plans, you must always be doing something fun. Well I am. Others may not think so, BUT if I am enjoying it. That is all that matters. I may be a little bored occasionally. but OH WELL!! If I continue to try and do other stuff all the time, I will never get what I needed done. I can me.. and I am happy with it.. I can put something on, that maybe others might not like. But ya know what.. I dont care anymore. I will be me.. and if that is by wearing leggings with a short skirt then fine. if that is me... putting nothing on my face.. GOD FORBID.. then that is ME. If I wake up and want to put make up.. then that is ME... MEMEMEMEMEM... ALL THAT MATTERS IN THIS WORLD.. me......yes I love others and will try to be considerate.. but survival of the fittest. one man show. "everyman for himself"