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I've come to realize something....for once in my life I am truely alone...and noone seems to notice or really cares...Maybe I'll just vanish...I dont think anyone will notice...I'll go where noone will find me unless I want them to...Cuz I am sick of being used. I'm tired of being hurt. I just want to be really loved. According to a movie the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return....thats a problem...see I love...I love easily...But am I truely loved in return....No....I cant name a single person(outside my family) that would do what I do and would do for the person I love...No One ever has....they are all too selfish...I came close once to getting what I gave in return....But he's gone...dosnet want anything to do with me...Prolly hates me...Cuz I'm not good enough for him....whatever...I'll just be alone with my cat....I have my amusement....I'll be fine that way...I have books...I have wrestling...Its cheaper too....no traveling...no spending money at all really....Maybe I will go back to school...I dont know...I dont have the want to really do anything anymore...I just want to be...and in all reality..I dont want that either...I'm bored with everything...Life in general...No will and no want to do anything...I just want to sleep....I dont even want to work because I am bored with it...Dont want to get out of bed because I have no motivation for the day....
Never knew the loss of someone could do this....Now I do....
Never knew the loss of someone could do this....Now I do....