give me one reason
I've been noticing changes.
a compilation of random feelings.
I've been feeling incredibly lonely as of lately. It's not the empty "i-need-to-fill-this" lonely, it's just the realization of everything I've been missing. After the classes, the papers, the tests, after working at both jobs, I've just realized I've wasted a lot of time. Rather than spending the little time I have left with my friends, I've been desperately trying to spend time with my family( david included). I have never realized how thankful I should be to have them, and I feel as though I've been incredibly ungrateful in my past. I like to think that I am incredibly independent, but when I think about all the times that I've doubted myself, it was my family that made me feel better about it. I love my mom and dad.
I decided to take a break from inkstainedpages. I don't really know that after my time off that I'll feel better about anything, but I just dont feel connected to anyone there anymore. I miss that feeling quite a bit.
I started another job. I'm working at a local gas station as well as Sampan, now. It feels nice being a part of something. They really strive for everyone to be better as a team. I love that. They have stockings for everyone on the wall, and window clings. window clings! My name is on each. I work mornings. Early, early mornings on the weekends. I bake muffins and danishes and cookies and whoopie pies and donuts and just about everything. I get the feeling that I'll lose weight from working there, because I've only worked two days and I havent felt the urge to eat anything sweet since my first shift. I'm also a secret santa.
My dog got run over by my grandmother [accidentally] two days ago. Amazingly, he lived. And even though I spent three hours and five hundred dollars in the vet on my only day off, I am so thankful for that.
I've almost completely finished my christmas shopping. My mom, dad, step father, brothers, boyfriend and close to everyone else is finished. I really didn't spend any money on my friends, simply because I don't have it. Aside from my secret santa gift, I'm close to finished. Merry Christmas, guys?
Two more finals and I have a month off. I've already recieved next semesters bill, so I already have that hanging on my shoulder. I did it before, I can do it again.
i need you so much closer.
a compilation of random feelings.
I've been feeling incredibly lonely as of lately. It's not the empty "i-need-to-fill-this" lonely, it's just the realization of everything I've been missing. After the classes, the papers, the tests, after working at both jobs, I've just realized I've wasted a lot of time. Rather than spending the little time I have left with my friends, I've been desperately trying to spend time with my family( david included). I have never realized how thankful I should be to have them, and I feel as though I've been incredibly ungrateful in my past. I like to think that I am incredibly independent, but when I think about all the times that I've doubted myself, it was my family that made me feel better about it. I love my mom and dad.
I decided to take a break from inkstainedpages. I don't really know that after my time off that I'll feel better about anything, but I just dont feel connected to anyone there anymore. I miss that feeling quite a bit.
I started another job. I'm working at a local gas station as well as Sampan, now. It feels nice being a part of something. They really strive for everyone to be better as a team. I love that. They have stockings for everyone on the wall, and window clings. window clings! My name is on each. I work mornings. Early, early mornings on the weekends. I bake muffins and danishes and cookies and whoopie pies and donuts and just about everything. I get the feeling that I'll lose weight from working there, because I've only worked two days and I havent felt the urge to eat anything sweet since my first shift. I'm also a secret santa.
My dog got run over by my grandmother [accidentally] two days ago. Amazingly, he lived. And even though I spent three hours and five hundred dollars in the vet on my only day off, I am so thankful for that.
I've almost completely finished my christmas shopping. My mom, dad, step father, brothers, boyfriend and close to everyone else is finished. I really didn't spend any money on my friends, simply because I don't have it. Aside from my secret santa gift, I'm close to finished. Merry Christmas, guys?
Two more finals and I have a month off. I've already recieved next semesters bill, so I already have that hanging on my shoulder. I did it before, I can do it again.
i need you so much closer.