Nov 25, 2006 16:10
I'm taking my first practice MCAT on the computer in the next couple of weeks. I signed up on Thursday, and I'm all set to go. I'm a little nervous, because I'm entering into the final steps and finally starting to get ready to apply to Med school. I guess what I've always been most fearful about is that I'll turn into "one of those premed kids." One of the biggest compliments that my peers can give me is when I hear them say "oh, I had no idea that you were premed" because it shows me that I've been able to really play the whole thing down, which has been my goal this whole time in college. I don't think many people even know that I am a Bio major; many people think I just do Clinical Psych. The one downside to this is that I know a lot of people think that I'm stupid; that usually hurts my feelings, especially when people base how easy a class is on whether or not I told them I did well in it. But I guess it really doesn't matter what people think, especially when it isn't true. It's always a good laugh for me when I find out someone's GPA who thinks I'm not that smart and mine is higher; that's certainly a very nice feeling. I am so afraid that my MCAT studying and applying is going to turn me into someone I hate. I just really hope that my dedication to my family, friends, and my responsibilities to my other commitments doesn't suffer. I really feel that all the activities I do helps me to be a little more open minded towards others and cognizant of their accomplishments. The more people I work with/spend time with the easier it is for me to jump into their shoes and to see where they are coming from. I really wouldn't want to lose that ability, because I still need to practice it now. I'm just so amazed what people are able to accomplish, and I really want to work hard to notice those accomplishments of others and to praise them for their good works. I really hope applying to med school won't take away from this, because for me, it's more important to try to help others than to get what I want. Maybe that means I'm not cut out for medicine, but I hope not.