Brighter days ahead?

[caspercutie]

So, as much as 2005 was a really rough year for me in so many ways, I have such a better outlook now on the possibilities for this year. I have been through so much recently. There has been so much hurt, so much pain, so much heartache. I know that a lot of that will continue going forward, but at the same time there are a few of those things that I am ...almost... ready to close the door on and try not to look back. I still want my mom back, I still want my grandpa to be the way he was, I want to know that everything will be okay. For once, I'd like a plan to work out. I'd like to get my life back on track for the direction that I really know that I want it to go. I have felt so helpless a lot of the time recently, but I think that I am finally ready to regain control over a lot of this.

I want to thank those few certain people who have come into and back into my life. You have touched me in ways you will likely never know and helped me immensely. I want to thank you for the hope that you have given me that things can get better and there is still a chance that I can be happy. Thank you for brightening the second half of this year and making the beginning of 2006 so much better than the beginning of 2005. It was nice to not feel the need or desire to down a bottle of champagne two nights in a row to deal with the pain and hurt. Thank you in particular to a certain person who has really made all of this work. I love you and I hope that 2006 is a great year of new beginnings and growth for us. Thank you for always being there for me. Goodnight moon…