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I really hate being bored. Joe just left, and he left early which is weird but now I'm gonna be up for the next 2-3 hours guaranteed with nothing to do. my brain hasnt been working at all lately, but oh well who cares. next week is gonna be hell. i dont know if i'll have time for anything b/c i will actually have stuff to do. i'm gettin ready to start school soon, yay, and i wont be able to do anything during the week unless its early in the morning, i'll most likely have classes mon-thurs. i'll have the weekend tho. i doubt i'll see Joe much, but whats new. its raining and my pants are wet from standing outside in the rain like the idiot i am. i need to start taking my meds again, b/c i've been crazy, i've had my suicidal thoughts and attempts and i cant sleep much anymore and i'm mean again. i dont know maybe i'm this way for a reason. maybe god is tryin to tell me something. my head is starting to hurt and i'm cold i need my backup hoodie and dry pants, and now i'm hungry. ehhh next i'm gonna want a haircut at 2 in the morning. i think i'm gonna sleep all day, i dont have anything to do tmr and so i dont really need to get up. i'm really really really bored, and i'm gettin sleepy and very hungry, actually now that i've been thinkin about it i'm always hungry (i think about weird things sorry). i need something to do. i wish everything could go my way but my wishes nvr come true so its a waste of time to even think about it, its a waste of time for anything anymore. i'm out ltr fries