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Well, I've done it now, handed in all of my journal research, my lab books and my results. Well, noy so much handed them in as sneaked in at 22.45 and left them on the dask that used to be mine.
I should be feeling relieved, bt I don't. The whole failure thing keeps creeping back over me. Part of the problem may be what to tell my parents? Do I lie, say its done, and in a few weeks lie again and say I failed (or for the big lie, that I passed!). Or do I tell them the truth. That this crap has screwed me up so much that I'm been on antidepressants, and seem to hover just this side of suicidal for several days at a time?
Its a hard one...
I should be feeling relieved, bt I don't. The whole failure thing keeps creeping back over me. Part of the problem may be what to tell my parents? Do I lie, say its done, and in a few weeks lie again and say I failed (or for the big lie, that I passed!). Or do I tell them the truth. That this crap has screwed me up so much that I'm been on antidepressants, and seem to hover just this side of suicidal for several days at a time?
Its a hard one...