twenty-five things about myself.
Meme stolen from the beautiful everyforever, rustandfinedust, and influira.
1. I am insufferably verbose both in writing and when speaking. CONSIDER THIS A WARNING.
2. I was the most hideous child/teenager in existence. Anything that can be wrong with a person's looks was wrong with mine. But I didn't feel bad about my appearance at the time. I knew I was ugly, but it was just like knowing that I was bad at sports. A fact of life. I think my personality changed when my looks changed. Not in a bad way, necessarily. I just became hyper-aware of myself.
3. I love being able to feel light filtering through leafy trees because the sun is so strong. I love sleeping without a blanket, the Australian Open, the smell of sunscreen, families walking around after 8pm when it's still light, film festivals, the alternately moving and (unintentionally) hilarious ads that Australian cricket players make, the drunken parties my neighbours throw that smell of beer and barbecues, the feeling of water trickling down from my hands to my elbows, free ferries going to unknown islands in the harbour, ice-cream vans, seeing multicultural teams playing cricket in the park with full-on pads and helmets and matching uniforms. I associate all of these with Australian summers.
4. I am very liberal in my social, economic and political views. I have a hard time understanding conservatism and find it absolutely impossible to sympathise with. It kills me that nearly all of my friends are politically conservative. I just never, ever tolerate discussions of politics with them. I always change the subject for the sake of holding onto those friendships.
5. I fear failure and falling. And I fear not getting high enough to fail or fall.
6. I am very awkward socially, because I'm independent and self-sufficient and I just never feel the need to randomly talk to strangers unless I have to get something from them (disclaimer: I'm talking about information, directions, etc. not manipulative shit!). I don't like telling people about myself because interesting facts don't leap to the tip of my tongue and I'm not about to sit there and bore you just for the sake of making conversation. I don't do idle chit-chat. I'M NOT GOING TO CARE ABOUT YOUR LIFE IF I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOUR NAME. Today a complete stranger tried to strike up a conversation with me and my response was, "I think you have the wrong person." See? Awkward.
7. Few things anger me more than nepotism.
8. I want to improve conditions for refugees undergoing processing in their destination country. I want to make sure that information and personnel are more readily available to refugees before and after they leave their homes. I want to stop the widespread ambivalence toward the needs of economic refugees. I want refugees to be dealt guarantees to which governments are held responsible and accountable, not fickle charity. This is why I'm going to study law.
9. I realised the other day that my pet-naming technique is lacking in any kind of originality. My first pet was a goldfish. I named her Cleo, after the goldfish in Pinocchio. My second pet is a cat. I named him Figaro, after the cat in Pinocchio. I guess I have to get me a donkey next.
10. I like my shoulders.
11. Only my best friend Gen knows that I write. And I'll still never show her any of my writing. I don't really know why I'm so private about it. I guess sharing my writing would make it feel like I was handing obligation over, ready to receive judgement in return. I don't write for that. (When I do, it's football fic.)
12. Nothing makes me sadder than the (non-)relationship I have with my sister. I have a book that she made when she was little, called 'Me and my sister', and it's basically about how much she idolised me and loved spending time with me. She still idolises me. It's hard - I'm not a nurturing, loving type of person. I don't show affection. I'm more of a second mother to her - a strict mother, at that. I make her laugh, but I don't laugh along with her. I buy her presents but I don't like to hug her when she thanks me. It's a really bad situation. I'm going to stop thinking about it now.
13. I like people who are open. I like people who tell the truth all the time. I like people who aren't afraid to make a (tough) decision and stick to it. I like people who don't wear what everyone else is wearing. I like people who sing to themselves in public.
14. I wish I didn't hate rain so much. If I wake up and it's raining outside, I'm immediately in a terrible mood FOREVER. I wish I could just be like 'la di da, isn't the rain pretty, look at the happy crops'.
15. I have had the name Souleymane stuck in my head for the past few days. I mean, what the hell.
16. I am paranoid about my teeth looking yellow, about my skin being dry OR shiny, about people being able to hear me swallow, and about closing my eyes in public (my eyes tend not to close all the way).
17. I don't learn well in group situations. I've never been good at study/discussion groups. I think competitiveness is a terrible trait and I worry that it comes out in me when I'm learning something with another person alongside me. I remember, in Spain, Gen wanted to listen to my Spanish language podcasts with me and I felt so weirdly uncomfortable. I like going at my own pace. I'm always worried that I'm slower than other people.
18. I hate Apple. I do have an ipod, but it screws up all the time and I blame that entirely on the fact that it's an Apple product. I just hate the way they treat people like they're idiots, all rounded corners and speech bubbles. Ugh.
19. There are only two people who understand anything about me. Everybody else (seriously, everybody) is way off the mark. It's really annoying having to explain myself all the time to people who have known me for years.
20. The only fond memories I have from my childhood are ones involving my parents. I don't like to think about school, or the friends I had. I was the same social leper I am today, which is far harder to handle when you're under the age of ten. Because I was not only socially awkward but incredibly sensitive to criticism and insults, whereas now, you'd have to be pretty damn incisive to hurt my feelings.
21. I automatically turn my head to the right when I watch TV. I've been doing it all my life.
22. I like eating green olives, chocolate-covered coffee beans, and all kinds of biscuits. I much prefer to snack than to eat meals, and I like to drink (anything) more than I like to snack.
23. I would collapse into a weeping heap of sadness if I ever lost my notebook. In it I have pages and pages of fiction, important numbers and passwords, quotes, gifts I need to get for people, Spanish grammar and vocab, books to read, random diary entries, and innumerable ideas.
24. I have the most insane mood swings. I really wish I didn't. It's really hard to go from deliriously happy to self-loathing in a heartbeat.
25. I am incredibly proud of the club I support, for so many reasons. And I use the word 'proud' quite deliberately. I love what we are. I feel so lucky that this is my club, that those are our players, that Kenny is our manager. I have never met a Liverpool supporter I don't like.
1. I am insufferably verbose both in writing and when speaking. CONSIDER THIS A WARNING.
2. I was the most hideous child/teenager in existence. Anything that can be wrong with a person's looks was wrong with mine. But I didn't feel bad about my appearance at the time. I knew I was ugly, but it was just like knowing that I was bad at sports. A fact of life. I think my personality changed when my looks changed. Not in a bad way, necessarily. I just became hyper-aware of myself.
3. I love being able to feel light filtering through leafy trees because the sun is so strong. I love sleeping without a blanket, the Australian Open, the smell of sunscreen, families walking around after 8pm when it's still light, film festivals, the alternately moving and (unintentionally) hilarious ads that Australian cricket players make, the drunken parties my neighbours throw that smell of beer and barbecues, the feeling of water trickling down from my hands to my elbows, free ferries going to unknown islands in the harbour, ice-cream vans, seeing multicultural teams playing cricket in the park with full-on pads and helmets and matching uniforms. I associate all of these with Australian summers.
4. I am very liberal in my social, economic and political views. I have a hard time understanding conservatism and find it absolutely impossible to sympathise with. It kills me that nearly all of my friends are politically conservative. I just never, ever tolerate discussions of politics with them. I always change the subject for the sake of holding onto those friendships.
5. I fear failure and falling. And I fear not getting high enough to fail or fall.
6. I am very awkward socially, because I'm independent and self-sufficient and I just never feel the need to randomly talk to strangers unless I have to get something from them (disclaimer: I'm talking about information, directions, etc. not manipulative shit!). I don't like telling people about myself because interesting facts don't leap to the tip of my tongue and I'm not about to sit there and bore you just for the sake of making conversation. I don't do idle chit-chat. I'M NOT GOING TO CARE ABOUT YOUR LIFE IF I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOUR NAME. Today a complete stranger tried to strike up a conversation with me and my response was, "I think you have the wrong person." See? Awkward.
7. Few things anger me more than nepotism.
8. I want to improve conditions for refugees undergoing processing in their destination country. I want to make sure that information and personnel are more readily available to refugees before and after they leave their homes. I want to stop the widespread ambivalence toward the needs of economic refugees. I want refugees to be dealt guarantees to which governments are held responsible and accountable, not fickle charity. This is why I'm going to study law.
9. I realised the other day that my pet-naming technique is lacking in any kind of originality. My first pet was a goldfish. I named her Cleo, after the goldfish in Pinocchio. My second pet is a cat. I named him Figaro, after the cat in Pinocchio. I guess I have to get me a donkey next.
10. I like my shoulders.
11. Only my best friend Gen knows that I write. And I'll still never show her any of my writing. I don't really know why I'm so private about it. I guess sharing my writing would make it feel like I was handing obligation over, ready to receive judgement in return. I don't write for that. (When I do, it's football fic.)
12. Nothing makes me sadder than the (non-)relationship I have with my sister. I have a book that she made when she was little, called 'Me and my sister', and it's basically about how much she idolised me and loved spending time with me. She still idolises me. It's hard - I'm not a nurturing, loving type of person. I don't show affection. I'm more of a second mother to her - a strict mother, at that. I make her laugh, but I don't laugh along with her. I buy her presents but I don't like to hug her when she thanks me. It's a really bad situation. I'm going to stop thinking about it now.
13. I like people who are open. I like people who tell the truth all the time. I like people who aren't afraid to make a (tough) decision and stick to it. I like people who don't wear what everyone else is wearing. I like people who sing to themselves in public.
14. I wish I didn't hate rain so much. If I wake up and it's raining outside, I'm immediately in a terrible mood FOREVER. I wish I could just be like 'la di da, isn't the rain pretty, look at the happy crops'.
15. I have had the name Souleymane stuck in my head for the past few days. I mean, what the hell.
16. I am paranoid about my teeth looking yellow, about my skin being dry OR shiny, about people being able to hear me swallow, and about closing my eyes in public (my eyes tend not to close all the way).
17. I don't learn well in group situations. I've never been good at study/discussion groups. I think competitiveness is a terrible trait and I worry that it comes out in me when I'm learning something with another person alongside me. I remember, in Spain, Gen wanted to listen to my Spanish language podcasts with me and I felt so weirdly uncomfortable. I like going at my own pace. I'm always worried that I'm slower than other people.
18. I hate Apple. I do have an ipod, but it screws up all the time and I blame that entirely on the fact that it's an Apple product. I just hate the way they treat people like they're idiots, all rounded corners and speech bubbles. Ugh.
19. There are only two people who understand anything about me. Everybody else (seriously, everybody) is way off the mark. It's really annoying having to explain myself all the time to people who have known me for years.
20. The only fond memories I have from my childhood are ones involving my parents. I don't like to think about school, or the friends I had. I was the same social leper I am today, which is far harder to handle when you're under the age of ten. Because I was not only socially awkward but incredibly sensitive to criticism and insults, whereas now, you'd have to be pretty damn incisive to hurt my feelings.
21. I automatically turn my head to the right when I watch TV. I've been doing it all my life.
22. I like eating green olives, chocolate-covered coffee beans, and all kinds of biscuits. I much prefer to snack than to eat meals, and I like to drink (anything) more than I like to snack.
23. I would collapse into a weeping heap of sadness if I ever lost my notebook. In it I have pages and pages of fiction, important numbers and passwords, quotes, gifts I need to get for people, Spanish grammar and vocab, books to read, random diary entries, and innumerable ideas.
24. I have the most insane mood swings. I really wish I didn't. It's really hard to go from deliriously happy to self-loathing in a heartbeat.
25. I am incredibly proud of the club I support, for so many reasons. And I use the word 'proud' quite deliberately. I love what we are. I feel so lucky that this is my club, that those are our players, that Kenny is our manager. I have never met a Liverpool supporter I don't like.