ages
it's been ages since i've posted on my livejournal. AGES! i really have nothing to say. i'm miserable as always. certain things of course make me happy, but i don't think there's anything that really makes me happy. i don't think i can really make the effort anyways. i just want to leave.
i'm not saying i want to leave college. sometimes i just feel like i'm in school just to get the degree. i'm not learning anything. most of my teachers are absolutely terrible. i wonder how people like that can become teachers, let alone college professors. i know i just have to deal, but it's so fucking frustrating to put up with shit like that.
it still hasn't snowed yet, and that's like the one good thing. i mean when i'm talking about weather, you know things suck. it's fucked up because my closest friends live on the other side of campus, so i only get to see them on weekends. i just want to kind of disappear. i hate my living situation. i hate my roommate. i'm cringing as i'm writing all this because it's only making me feel worse. i remember why i stopped writing: because it's so fucking depressing.
"i drift along the ocean/dead lifeboats in the sun"
i'm not saying i want to leave college. sometimes i just feel like i'm in school just to get the degree. i'm not learning anything. most of my teachers are absolutely terrible. i wonder how people like that can become teachers, let alone college professors. i know i just have to deal, but it's so fucking frustrating to put up with shit like that.
it still hasn't snowed yet, and that's like the one good thing. i mean when i'm talking about weather, you know things suck. it's fucked up because my closest friends live on the other side of campus, so i only get to see them on weekends. i just want to kind of disappear. i hate my living situation. i hate my roommate. i'm cringing as i'm writing all this because it's only making me feel worse. i remember why i stopped writing: because it's so fucking depressing.
"i drift along the ocean/dead lifeboats in the sun"