changed
laying down. thinking of how my life was like a year ago. thinking of all the horrible decisions i use to make and how i really didnt get through a day without a drink. seriously considered myself an alcoholic. I feel like I have really grown up since then. its unfortunate of the name I made for myself because people dont forget no matter how hard you try to prove that youre not that person anymore. especially since it was only a year ago. it gets frustrating when i try to meet new people and constantly wonder what they already know about me. not being able to have a fresh start with anyone because a friend of a friend told a story about some drunk sloppy slut. everyone has their opinions formed before they even meet me. i guess all i can do now is just show them thats not me. i am someone i can be proud of now. im not ashamed of who i am now. i am ashamed of who i was then. I just hope people start realizing im growing up and make mistakes.