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So honestly this last week I have been walking on a cloud. Not letting the little things bug me so much just because I know have some amazing experiences to look forard to. I want this year to be all about things that can be bettering me and my life and my experiences. If that means ending current relationships so I can look to find a new one then that is what I need to do. Back to getting on my own feet without relying on someone else to help me there. Yes a little help in your life is always nice and I am very grateful for the help I have received but I need to do it on my own now just so I don't feel like im being stuck because that is no way to view a relationship. I want to see so much of the world and talks with my best friend makes me anxious and is making me realize that traveling is something that can actually be done, and seeing exotic places is not something only the rich can enjoy. I am still planning on going to college this year for nursing however I am not sure if I want to wait to return for the fall semester so I can explore new places because I am just now taking that seriosuly. Yes I have been to a few places nothing like the places I want to visit. March is going to be my first glimpse into the life of paradise in Hawaii, and after that I feel like I am going to have an even more desire to see other places. Traveling is just one thing I want to enjoy this year, I am also attempting to surround myself with people who make me happy and who improve my life. The last half of last year was all about that and I have reconnected with old friends, I have grown myself with the mistakes from last year. I have learned from my mistakes and I have tried working on my flaws and I have taken the negative out of my life. And by negative I am mainly referring to alcohol because thats all I can remember from the first half of last year..is always wanting booze in my system and that is obviously because I just wasnt happy with my life and how it was turning out but it was turning out that way because I would drink all the time. Now i drink like any normal person whos not trying to kill their liver. Once in a while, here or there it might be a little more but I have also gone months without any alcohol at all without a problem because it's no longer what I use to put myself in a good mood. I use plans for the future, I use the positive people around me and I use my family. If the end of last year has an indication on how this year is going to be then I think this year is going to be a great year for me.