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it just gets to the point where i cannot hold it in anymore.. im seriously screaming inside and not knowing what to do... im loosing my friends and my familys trust and its like everything is just falling down on me at one time.
i hate complaining and i hate being so annoying or self centered or whatever else i amt hats negative but i guess i just am and right now i feel so weak and so disgusting.
im letting him walk all over me...im letting myself love him and not caring what the consequences will be. every other day hes okay with me and when hes not it makes me feel like im nothing to him.. like im just here incase he needs me to do something for him. but iLET HIM i fucking let him! for what? ONE or maybe TWO nights of happiness!? AFTER waiting hours and hours for him to get off the stupid fucking computer!? Why am i doing this... why do i love him... why do i fucking love people who just hurt me?
Why do we all have to hurt all the time? Is there anyone out there who is completely happy with their life right now? If you are, please tell me.. give me the confidence that someday things may be okay.. because right now ive lost that feeling completely and i really need to get that back.
Whatever. Things will get better I will be okay.
i hate complaining and i hate being so annoying or self centered or whatever else i amt hats negative but i guess i just am and right now i feel so weak and so disgusting.
im letting him walk all over me...im letting myself love him and not caring what the consequences will be. every other day hes okay with me and when hes not it makes me feel like im nothing to him.. like im just here incase he needs me to do something for him. but iLET HIM i fucking let him! for what? ONE or maybe TWO nights of happiness!? AFTER waiting hours and hours for him to get off the stupid fucking computer!? Why am i doing this... why do i love him... why do i fucking love people who just hurt me?
Why do we all have to hurt all the time? Is there anyone out there who is completely happy with their life right now? If you are, please tell me.. give me the confidence that someday things may be okay.. because right now ive lost that feeling completely and i really need to get that back.
Whatever. Things will get better I will be okay.