Ovaaa
Harper orientation today..hoollaa to getting that shit donnnee. Took forever.
Greg drove me..eh... he actually called last night to confirm it...although it was a semi awkward unpleasent thing but whatever got through with it.
I've realized so much in like.. a night.
I'm done calling him and trying to be with him.. FUCk that... I'm done crying and wishing I had done things differently because I deserve better than that. Looking at him today I realized that I'm not attracted to him anymore...his personality is ....not good. Hes still adorable and gives great sex but thats about it. If in the future we get together again or whatever then fine..but I'm done trying. He finally changed the background of his phone cause it was a picture of us...gave me a little stomache flip but it ended soon. I have to keep telling myself that I'm 18 years old... my dating life is barely even starting. I'm going to be meeting so many people and things are going to be better. I'm on my own..Independant again, I was tooooo dependant on him WAY too much. That's one of the hardest parts right now is just learning to live/be on my own and pay ofr my life ha. It's going to be okay though I keep telling myself that. Whatever. Someday my Aiden will be here <3
Thats about it I think.. thats my basic update. I'm happy with myself right now and that's waht matters. I can't wait to start school meet people and start living... it's very exciting and I'm just HAPPY. I woke up happy today and at a decent hour, I don't know things are looking good for me... Thankyou to everyone whos been there for me.
Don't worry ill probably write again being sad about Greg but at least I'm aware of it.
Holla
Greg drove me..eh... he actually called last night to confirm it...although it was a semi awkward unpleasent thing but whatever got through with it.
I've realized so much in like.. a night.
I'm done calling him and trying to be with him.. FUCk that... I'm done crying and wishing I had done things differently because I deserve better than that. Looking at him today I realized that I'm not attracted to him anymore...his personality is ....not good. Hes still adorable and gives great sex but thats about it. If in the future we get together again or whatever then fine..but I'm done trying. He finally changed the background of his phone cause it was a picture of us...gave me a little stomache flip but it ended soon. I have to keep telling myself that I'm 18 years old... my dating life is barely even starting. I'm going to be meeting so many people and things are going to be better. I'm on my own..Independant again, I was tooooo dependant on him WAY too much. That's one of the hardest parts right now is just learning to live/be on my own and pay ofr my life ha. It's going to be okay though I keep telling myself that. Whatever. Someday my Aiden will be here <3
Thats about it I think.. thats my basic update. I'm happy with myself right now and that's waht matters. I can't wait to start school meet people and start living... it's very exciting and I'm just HAPPY. I woke up happy today and at a decent hour, I don't know things are looking good for me... Thankyou to everyone whos been there for me.
Don't worry ill probably write again being sad about Greg but at least I'm aware of it.
Holla