From...July 27, 2005
This entry is from July 27, 2005....while i was sitting in my room at Indiana Beach - doing what i did most often....ponder about various things...here are my words!
July 27, 2005
This entry is back-dated obviously...My cable went out this evening due to the small-monsoon of a storm that we had this evening here at good ole Indiana Beach, so I'm left with a 13" Tv donned with a blue screen, and a perfectly functioning computer-but no net hookup, so im doing the best that I can. All the operators agreed that nights like tonight are what we all hope and pray for every day. I mean, getting paid to sit around clown on each other and eat candy from the Emporium sound pretty much like the most perfect job in the world. I am not gonna lie, I really do hate it here sometimes....but then i'm ever so conveniently reminded just why i keep coming back, and no - it's not just the raise every year...but that sure helps too. This place its kinda hard to describe, part high school, part frat, part sweat shop, part Disneyesque atmosphere...all perfectly conglomerated together to make this irresistable place that I call home for three months out of the year. Maybe its my borderline hermit lifestyle this summer...but ive learned to appreciate a lot that ive taken for granted for awhile. One being my sister....my sister is my best friend, and someone who I know i can always depend on. I mean she does everything for me...and there is no way that the special bond we share could ever be replaced or matched by any person, thing, or object. She keeps me going, makes me laugh more than anyone, and I am envious of how much she is like by sooo many people....everyone LOVES my sister - there is no denying that, and if they dont....well then that's their fault. Also my friends have really made a special place in my heart....sometimes i forget just how important they are. It seems that some of my relationships with friends have taken a back seat to classes, work, sleeping, the bar, and yes the ever dreaded gf/bf. On top of all of this, I've also gotten the shit scared out of me...being one of the oldest (weird) ride operators out here, and soon to graduate next May....I often get asked what my plans are next, and what am I to do about next year? Of course it has crossed my mind...not I cant say that i have seriously thought about having a real job.....forever. it is just so hard to imagine me, working the same hours, the same days...and even have a normal work load. like am i old enough to have this on me yet? i feel like waaay too much responsibility is involved with "growing up" , responsibility that i am not yet prepared nor have i yet earned. yes i do have doubts about what the future may hold for me....who knows where or what ill be in a year? and that really does scare me and excite me all at the same time....it is really only me that can control what I want....but what does casey want?
July 27, 2005
This entry is back-dated obviously...My cable went out this evening due to the small-monsoon of a storm that we had this evening here at good ole Indiana Beach, so I'm left with a 13" Tv donned with a blue screen, and a perfectly functioning computer-but no net hookup, so im doing the best that I can. All the operators agreed that nights like tonight are what we all hope and pray for every day. I mean, getting paid to sit around clown on each other and eat candy from the Emporium sound pretty much like the most perfect job in the world. I am not gonna lie, I really do hate it here sometimes....but then i'm ever so conveniently reminded just why i keep coming back, and no - it's not just the raise every year...but that sure helps too. This place its kinda hard to describe, part high school, part frat, part sweat shop, part Disneyesque atmosphere...all perfectly conglomerated together to make this irresistable place that I call home for three months out of the year. Maybe its my borderline hermit lifestyle this summer...but ive learned to appreciate a lot that ive taken for granted for awhile. One being my sister....my sister is my best friend, and someone who I know i can always depend on. I mean she does everything for me...and there is no way that the special bond we share could ever be replaced or matched by any person, thing, or object. She keeps me going, makes me laugh more than anyone, and I am envious of how much she is like by sooo many people....everyone LOVES my sister - there is no denying that, and if they dont....well then that's their fault. Also my friends have really made a special place in my heart....sometimes i forget just how important they are. It seems that some of my relationships with friends have taken a back seat to classes, work, sleeping, the bar, and yes the ever dreaded gf/bf. On top of all of this, I've also gotten the shit scared out of me...being one of the oldest (weird) ride operators out here, and soon to graduate next May....I often get asked what my plans are next, and what am I to do about next year? Of course it has crossed my mind...not I cant say that i have seriously thought about having a real job.....forever. it is just so hard to imagine me, working the same hours, the same days...and even have a normal work load. like am i old enough to have this on me yet? i feel like waaay too much responsibility is involved with "growing up" , responsibility that i am not yet prepared nor have i yet earned. yes i do have doubts about what the future may hold for me....who knows where or what ill be in a year? and that really does scare me and excite me all at the same time....it is really only me that can control what I want....but what does casey want?