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Fuck everything, I can't do this anymore. I can't live like this when everything is going punch for punch. I've only passed 2/7 classes this marking period. My mother can't afford to live here anymore; our electric bill was nearly 1,000 dollars this month, I'm hoping for something with Christian that'll never happen, my father won't even call me again unless someone calls him to tell him to. I can only think of 4 people who genuinely care about me and love me unconditionally, and then there's one other person who hates who I am and doesn't respect me and I run to him with everything and he's too busy with someone who claims to be my friend and he won't even pick up my calls when he swears he'll be an ear to listen. I can't deal with this; I don't know what to do. I have Allie and Melissa and Fiona and Nicole and that's it. The only thing going for me is Miss Saigon, and I don't even want to hope for Gigi because I'll just be dissapointed. I can't take this, I need to get out. I need to run far away - I'm desperate for something that won't...
I don't even know..
I'm out. Goodbye.
I don't even know..
I'm out. Goodbye.