Lets just see how fucking far you can actually push me before I push back
I realize that all I ever do on here is rant. If you don't wanna read another rant then stop fucking reading.
All my life, well most of my life from about 15 years old on, I was called a slut. Not just by other kids by other kids parents, thier sisters, you fucking name it. The funny thing is that I wasn't. And I still am not. I never will be. I just don't have it in me to be. I have a concious and self respect. Sluts don't have these qualities. As a matter of fact most people my age have slept with 3 times as many people as I have. But I am the slutty one. Sure. Fucking whatever helps you sleep @ night. I will be your scapegoat. Make fun of me all you want when you think I am not listening.
Now the reason why this is all coming back up is because I overheard my new roommate talking about my clevage and how he would take me to the club and pimp me out. Cause aparrently I am a fucking whore. (Minus like a zillion points for the new roomie whom i thought was alright. I really need to move out) Joining him was my other roommate Jimmy and a friend of theirs Anglea. This prolley all came about cause I went out last night. With Grant and a few friends. Now when I go out...I look fucking good. I don't get to go out very much and I never really have a reason to dress up, so naturally the time and place would be then right? Right. I do have a tendency to dress a little risque. I admit. Take for instance last night, I had on the following: my knee high dancing boots that I always wear, grey stockings sticking out of my boots also about knee high, a grey and black short skirt but it wasn't ass short I could still sit down in it is what I am sayin, 2 belts the fucker belt and the handcuffbelt, a black top with a really low cut, a great red bra which makes my boobs look good that wasn't sticking out at all, a coller, 2 bracelets, typical night time makeup which means it was darker colors, and my hair plain and undone. Aparently that makes me whore worthy. Lemme just say this.....A girl who took pictures of Sadie and I for the newtimes took my pictures again last night cause she loved the way I looked. So make sure to fucking look me up in the upcoming newtimes mother fuckers. Cause I looked fucking hot last night. There was nothing slutty about it. I was some hot shit. (yeah yeah I know quick poke my head with a pin before it pops)
I am so fucking sick and tired of fucking people whom I am always curtious to treating me like shit. Fuck you guys. I am not going to let you make me feel like shit anymore.
You sons of a bitches are fueling my evergrowing fire.
I can feel a good portion of my self esteem returning.
I suppose I should be thanking you.
You are giving me what I need to help myself.
All my life, well most of my life from about 15 years old on, I was called a slut. Not just by other kids by other kids parents, thier sisters, you fucking name it. The funny thing is that I wasn't. And I still am not. I never will be. I just don't have it in me to be. I have a concious and self respect. Sluts don't have these qualities. As a matter of fact most people my age have slept with 3 times as many people as I have. But I am the slutty one. Sure. Fucking whatever helps you sleep @ night. I will be your scapegoat. Make fun of me all you want when you think I am not listening.
Now the reason why this is all coming back up is because I overheard my new roommate talking about my clevage and how he would take me to the club and pimp me out. Cause aparrently I am a fucking whore. (Minus like a zillion points for the new roomie whom i thought was alright. I really need to move out) Joining him was my other roommate Jimmy and a friend of theirs Anglea. This prolley all came about cause I went out last night. With Grant and a few friends. Now when I go out...I look fucking good. I don't get to go out very much and I never really have a reason to dress up, so naturally the time and place would be then right? Right. I do have a tendency to dress a little risque. I admit. Take for instance last night, I had on the following: my knee high dancing boots that I always wear, grey stockings sticking out of my boots also about knee high, a grey and black short skirt but it wasn't ass short I could still sit down in it is what I am sayin, 2 belts the fucker belt and the handcuffbelt, a black top with a really low cut, a great red bra which makes my boobs look good that wasn't sticking out at all, a coller, 2 bracelets, typical night time makeup which means it was darker colors, and my hair plain and undone. Aparently that makes me whore worthy. Lemme just say this.....A girl who took pictures of Sadie and I for the newtimes took my pictures again last night cause she loved the way I looked. So make sure to fucking look me up in the upcoming newtimes mother fuckers. Cause I looked fucking hot last night. There was nothing slutty about it. I was some hot shit. (yeah yeah I know quick poke my head with a pin before it pops)
I am so fucking sick and tired of fucking people whom I am always curtious to treating me like shit. Fuck you guys. I am not going to let you make me feel like shit anymore.
You sons of a bitches are fueling my evergrowing fire.
I can feel a good portion of my self esteem returning.
I suppose I should be thanking you.
You are giving me what I need to help myself.