day of birth
Busy busy busy weekend. I had a decent birthday. Didn't suck, but not great.
I could not possibly get out of here soon enough. Living with my parents is eating my insides. I am constantly in a state of rage/pain/anguish/disappointment/melancholy. I love my dad. But he's drunk all the time and therefore not really my dad. Because when I say my dad I mean the real person he is. I wish he could sort out his shit. But he'd rather bury it in alcohol. Ok, I watch enough intervention to know it's not that he'd rather, it's that he doesn't know another way. Blah blah blah, it hurts me. I'm not having him hurt Wendy. When I can finally move out for good, he's getting a talking to, and he will no longer see her unless he can do it stone cold sober. And my mom...that's just too long a story to go into.
Furthermore, my husband has a drinking problem, of which he is fully aware and tries his damndest to control, but without me around he loses direction. That sentence makes no sense. Oh well, I get it. I neeeeed to get to Georgia. 2 weeks, 5 days. Holy shit.
Hayley is in China. It is amazing. I can feel her becoming stronger, harmonizing with the universe. Everywhere she goes, I am. As she experiences the worldly place her spirit calls home, she sends me multitutdes of beautiful harmonious energy. The Tao has changed my life. It is so fun to see how this all plays out. Pieces of a puzzle.
I could not possibly get out of here soon enough. Living with my parents is eating my insides. I am constantly in a state of rage/pain/anguish/disappointment/melancholy. I love my dad. But he's drunk all the time and therefore not really my dad. Because when I say my dad I mean the real person he is. I wish he could sort out his shit. But he'd rather bury it in alcohol. Ok, I watch enough intervention to know it's not that he'd rather, it's that he doesn't know another way. Blah blah blah, it hurts me. I'm not having him hurt Wendy. When I can finally move out for good, he's getting a talking to, and he will no longer see her unless he can do it stone cold sober. And my mom...that's just too long a story to go into.
Furthermore, my husband has a drinking problem, of which he is fully aware and tries his damndest to control, but without me around he loses direction. That sentence makes no sense. Oh well, I get it. I neeeeed to get to Georgia. 2 weeks, 5 days. Holy shit.
Hayley is in China. It is amazing. I can feel her becoming stronger, harmonizing with the universe. Everywhere she goes, I am. As she experiences the worldly place her spirit calls home, she sends me multitutdes of beautiful harmonious energy. The Tao has changed my life. It is so fun to see how this all plays out. Pieces of a puzzle.