I am scum, shit, unclean, a loser, twat, CUNT, tosser...
So, yeah, I'm hitting myself in the face repetivly with a hard pillow. *Adopts sarcastic tone*. It's having no effect so I think I'll move on to a brick. It makes me feel better.
Anyway, I've made a fool out of myself and made Jimmy hate me, so I'll be passing time these next few weeks by sticking my head through windows, walking into lamp posts and generally doing dumb things to knock some sense into my head.
I feel so shitty, I didn't want any of this to happen, they were only dreams. I don't want them to be real, I have someone and I don't want to be with anyone else. They were only dreams, and I don't want any of my dreams to come true, ever. It means hurting people I care about, and I don't want that to happen.
I hate shitty emo type moods. So I'll get out of this emo mood and listen to some music. *reaches for a c.d and puts one in the player*
It's... oh this is grim... *looks at c.d player with un amused look*
It's some shitty c.d of riches, part of his secret collection of wank rock. *turns c.d off*
I have nothing to do. Next week, or the week after, I'm heading to New York. I have an interview to do for a fan page online, and then I have people to see, mainly ex band members. But that looks like all I'll be doing. I have to find Tripp very soon. I'll come see you as soon as I can.
I have to go. I think I might try out that primal scream theropy, and maybe try some theraputic tearing cushions to pieces with a sharp object. Just joking... no really, I am just joking.
seven kisses from chaos. xxxxxx
((Getting AIM very soon, as soon as we get online at home. Just moved house and have to get connected. Will have AIM soon, woo hoo!))
((Rich, amen guitarist, his role is up for grabs to any amen fan who wants to be him. Our previous Rich doesn't want him and wants to give the character to anyone who will use it and update. Contact me at-- msi_rikku_righ@hotmail.com))
Anyway, I've made a fool out of myself and made Jimmy hate me, so I'll be passing time these next few weeks by sticking my head through windows, walking into lamp posts and generally doing dumb things to knock some sense into my head.
I feel so shitty, I didn't want any of this to happen, they were only dreams. I don't want them to be real, I have someone and I don't want to be with anyone else. They were only dreams, and I don't want any of my dreams to come true, ever. It means hurting people I care about, and I don't want that to happen.
I hate shitty emo type moods. So I'll get out of this emo mood and listen to some music. *reaches for a c.d and puts one in the player*
It's... oh this is grim... *looks at c.d player with un amused look*
It's some shitty c.d of riches, part of his secret collection of wank rock. *turns c.d off*
I have nothing to do. Next week, or the week after, I'm heading to New York. I have an interview to do for a fan page online, and then I have people to see, mainly ex band members. But that looks like all I'll be doing. I have to find Tripp very soon. I'll come see you as soon as I can.
I have to go. I think I might try out that primal scream theropy, and maybe try some theraputic tearing cushions to pieces with a sharp object. Just joking... no really, I am just joking.
seven kisses from chaos. xxxxxx
((Getting AIM very soon, as soon as we get online at home. Just moved house and have to get connected. Will have AIM soon, woo hoo!))
((Rich, amen guitarist, his role is up for grabs to any amen fan who wants to be him. Our previous Rich doesn't want him and wants to give the character to anyone who will use it and update. Contact me at-- msi_rikku_righ@hotmail.com))