10 Questions and Panic Attacks
Quiz thing stolen from Angel's myspace.
10 THINGS:
TEN EMOTIONS.
1. Are you missing someone right now? YES.
2. Are you happy?: Haha, funny question
3. Are you bored?: Oui
4. Are you German?: Nope.
5. Are you Polish?: Nope.
6. Are you Spanish?: No.
7. Are you French?: No.
8. Are you Italian?: No.
9. Parents still married?: Yup
10. Do you like someone right now? Yes.
TEN FAVORITES.
1. Store: Barnes and Noble
2. Flowers: Rose
3. Color: blue, purple
4. Sport: Tennis/Dressage (though that's not like...an actual sport sport XD)
5. Mall: Definitely not any of the ones around here. Our malls=crap
6. Music: Classical, instrumental, rock
7. Food: Tofu Lasagna
8. Season: Spring
9. Animal: Horses, duh
10. State: South Carolina and Maryland
TEN FACTS.
1. Hometown: Charleston
2. Hair color: light brownish
4. Hair style: short and frizzy
5. Eye color: blue
6. Height: 5'2"
7. Weight: 90 somethin'
8. Birthday: September 11th
9. Single: Yes
10. Lefty/righty: Righty
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE.
1. Have you ever been in love: Sort of
2. Do you believe in love: Yes.
3. Why did your last relationship fail: Because I had to decide to date someone who was manic depressive and fucking crazy
4. Have you ever been heart-broken: Yes.
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart?: I'm quite good at that
6. Ever fallen for your best friend: Yes.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them: Yes.
8. Are you afraid of commitment: No.
9. Has someone ever kissed your hand: No.
10. Have you ever had a secret admirer: Not that I now of
TEN: THIS OR THAT.
1. Love or trust: Trust
2. Hard liquor or beer: Guh, neither. Tequila, wine, or champagne for me
3. Night or day: day
4. One night stands or relationships: Relationship
5. Television or internet: Internet
6. Pepsi or coke: Coke
7. Wild night out or romantic night in: Romantic night in.
8. Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
9. Phone or in person: In person. I hate talking on the phone.
10. McDonalds or Taco Bell: Neither
TEN: HAVE Y0U EVER.
1. Have you ever been caught sneaking out? Never snuck out XD
2. Have you ever skinny dipped? No.
3. Have you ever done something you regret? Oui
4. Have you ever been sky diving? Hell no.
5. Have you ever been on a house boat? Sort of
6. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker? Nope
7. Have you ever liked someone so badly it hurt? Unfortunately.
8. Have you ever wished you could take something back or have done something differently? Yes
9. Have you ever kissed in the rain? No
10. Have you ever had a hang over? A leetle one from the only time I got drunk.
*curls up in a ball* I'm scared. I'm really, really scared about Thursday (well I guess its tomorrow now, but anyway...) I'm worried for a lot of reasons. I'm worried that they won't find any endometriosis and that we'll be back at square one. I'm worried that they'll find something serious (gotta love my overactive imagination). I guess more than anything else I'm worried that they'll find something more serious =\ . And I'm terrified that something will go wrong. So..pray for me, guys.
I'm so fucking disappointed in myself. I've been so unmotivated (is that a word?). I've barely gotten any school work done. God, I don't want to go back. I just like...want to move somewhere else and start over. I've fucked everything up. Its my fault that I haven't done anything. I've let myself sink into this awful depression. Its awful. I feel so selfish because I'm upset that hardly any of my friends have called to just go, "Hey Case. You doin' okay?" Brittany hasn't called me since before my birthday. And she's supposedly my best friend. Whatever. Katie's being such a sweetie, though. She's been checking up on me a lot. She and another one of our friends are gonna come over on Sunday to keep me company. I'm happy about that. And of course my online friends have been great <3
I'm afraid that when I go back to school people will think that I just made all this up or they won't understand. I worry about what other people think too much. I just want to be normal. Is that so much to ask? I mean, last year I switched schools mid-year. That made me stand out. Now I'm sick and have been out for over a month =( . I hate it. I HATE it. I wish that I wasn't so damn fatigued. That and the pain are the main reasons I haven't been going. I'm at the point now where I have to sleep almost constantly. Its awful.
Oh yeah, my grandma's in the hospital >.< She's bleeding somewhere internally =(