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okay i know that was really depressing. i know i have the tendency to do that sometimes. but it just hit me after a really great weekend. like i was in this crazy good dream and someone violently shook me to wake me up, like they did it purposely to stop me from continuing with the dream. and the screaming... it's like an "ahhhhh get me out of here" more than anything else. i just want to be normal and have a normal education and a normal social life, and not have everyone i've grown to love pack up and leave me to face these hurdles all alone. that's all.
okay i know that was really depressing. i know i have the tendency to do that sometimes. but it just hit me after a really great weekend. like i was in this crazy good dream and someone violently shook me to wake me up, like they did it purposely to stop me from continuing with the dream. and the screaming... it's like an "ahhhhh get me out of here" more than anything else. i just want to be normal and have a normal education and a normal social life, and not have everyone i've grown to love pack up and leave me to face these hurdles all alone. that's all.