fallen
So I sit here before you having experienced the most amazing four days of my life. I shall say the words but unless you have experienced it you will not understand. She permeates my soul, every part of her sets me on fire. The whole world fades into the background and she is all I see and feel, whether she is with me or not. I have just said goodbye until next time and London is a big place, full of people, but standing on that platform as the train pulled out of sight I have never felt so alone in my life. I couldn't come home straight away so I sat in a bar, had a drink and smoked a couple of cigarettes. I couldn't feel sad, god knows I was, but all I could do was smile. Thinking about her, the amazing time we have had together. Small things that happened that will stay with me forever, her eyes, her smile, her smell, her soul. Sitting here now, alone, without her is strange. I feel like my life, my existance, will just be a series of periods of time between the times when I am with her. I love her, I am in love with her.