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**God wouldnt give me a mountain that I cant climb** << i have to keep telling myself that over and over again. why is it so hard for me to just realize that god puts things in my life for a reason. i may not know why... which is most of the time.. but somehow it always ends up being a good thing. i may hate it while im going thru a certain situation but i learn from it. and it makes me so much stronger.
ive been praying a lot lately. divin into the word thicker and deeper. its amazing what you can find when you just open your heart and mind.
today was the big ol' valentines day. i kind of thought of day as a day to acknowledge people i care about and love dearly. i let them know that i love them and they mean the world to me. i watched as girls in the hallway as the pranced around with teddy bears and flowers and these huge balloons. i just smiled. all those things will be but a mear memory in the big picture. all this high school drama will be in the past sooner or later. honestly, some things i wish would just be erased forever.
wow. my mind is spinning now. so much on my mind. so much to do before i go to sleep tonight. i procrastinate. a lot. thats something ive bene trying to break the habit of. i need to be more organized. college is coming faster then i can ever imagine. am i ready? i think so. my mind is. my heart? yeah thats a different story.
i will miss my friends indeed. they mean everything to me. even the ones that i may not stay that close in touch with. why do people change?? why does god put such amazing girl friends in my life then in an instance switch everything up? i guess this another lesson to be learned. im just not sure exactly what. i wish everything would go back to normal. but what is normal anymore? think about it. i know i have. i just wish.... ahhh... i dont even know anymore.
i didnt have any homework tonight for once in a very long time. math is going to be the death of me i swear. i wish i was just naturally smart like those girls that never had to stretch for jumps and tumbling on my lil girls cheerleading squad that i coached. some girls just had a beautiful jump without putting any effort into it- others had to stretch for like 20 minutes and even then you couldnt tell what they were doing in the air. i was always like that. i had to work for everything. i do now. everything is an obsatcle it seems like. god is with me though. like i said- he wouldnt give me a mountain that i cant climb.
wow. i have really hard core updated in this thing in awhile. i think of that as being a good thing. saying too much can get you in trouble i have learned. on a different note- ive got some pretty cool things in my near future that im really excited about. im going to the maroon 5 concert this march which is one of the best bands ever. and for spring break me and mel are going to hawaii for our senior trip. wayyyy cool.
anyways, i have to relaxin to catch up on so im gunna head on out. for any of you who actually read this novel- thank you. thank you for caring and taking time to listen to me ramble on about things i probably shouldnt waste my time on. i think thats a problem that i have. worrying too much. always worrying. thats all i do. not nessessarily about what people think of me but just in general. worrying about other people instead of myself. gahhh here i go again. i need to stop. ha!
have a great night guys. i love ya.
keep it real <>< <3
///howcanmyheartbreakwhenitwasntevenwholetobeginwith?
ive been praying a lot lately. divin into the word thicker and deeper. its amazing what you can find when you just open your heart and mind.
today was the big ol' valentines day. i kind of thought of day as a day to acknowledge people i care about and love dearly. i let them know that i love them and they mean the world to me. i watched as girls in the hallway as the pranced around with teddy bears and flowers and these huge balloons. i just smiled. all those things will be but a mear memory in the big picture. all this high school drama will be in the past sooner or later. honestly, some things i wish would just be erased forever.
wow. my mind is spinning now. so much on my mind. so much to do before i go to sleep tonight. i procrastinate. a lot. thats something ive bene trying to break the habit of. i need to be more organized. college is coming faster then i can ever imagine. am i ready? i think so. my mind is. my heart? yeah thats a different story.
i will miss my friends indeed. they mean everything to me. even the ones that i may not stay that close in touch with. why do people change?? why does god put such amazing girl friends in my life then in an instance switch everything up? i guess this another lesson to be learned. im just not sure exactly what. i wish everything would go back to normal. but what is normal anymore? think about it. i know i have. i just wish.... ahhh... i dont even know anymore.
i didnt have any homework tonight for once in a very long time. math is going to be the death of me i swear. i wish i was just naturally smart like those girls that never had to stretch for jumps and tumbling on my lil girls cheerleading squad that i coached. some girls just had a beautiful jump without putting any effort into it- others had to stretch for like 20 minutes and even then you couldnt tell what they were doing in the air. i was always like that. i had to work for everything. i do now. everything is an obsatcle it seems like. god is with me though. like i said- he wouldnt give me a mountain that i cant climb.
wow. i have really hard core updated in this thing in awhile. i think of that as being a good thing. saying too much can get you in trouble i have learned. on a different note- ive got some pretty cool things in my near future that im really excited about. im going to the maroon 5 concert this march which is one of the best bands ever. and for spring break me and mel are going to hawaii for our senior trip. wayyyy cool.
anyways, i have to relaxin to catch up on so im gunna head on out. for any of you who actually read this novel- thank you. thank you for caring and taking time to listen to me ramble on about things i probably shouldnt waste my time on. i think thats a problem that i have. worrying too much. always worrying. thats all i do. not nessessarily about what people think of me but just in general. worrying about other people instead of myself. gahhh here i go again. i need to stop. ha!
have a great night guys. i love ya.
keep it real <>< <3
///howcanmyheartbreakwhenitwasntevenwholetobeginwith?