just thinking...
So... school is over and the rush of christmas is finally here. I still havent done all my christman shoppin yet. everytime me and hill go to the mall we always buy anything and everything but things for our family and such. the countdown begins though. next week around this time will be christmas. yesssss i cant wait.
just a lil poem for ya...
ALONE
I didnt want to admit it,
It was easier to lie,
And hide the hurt and emptiness,
To smile instead of cry.
I didnt want to face the fact,
My life is full of pain,
And I long to stop my bleeding heart,
And maybe smile again.
'Cause I feel oh so forgotten,
So betrayed and so alone,
Without a trace of forgiveness,
And no soul to call my own.
I didnt want to admit the fact,
I cannot spread my wings,
And my happiness has melted,
Into tears and other things.
Its hard for me to hide the fact,
My wishes have no home,
And return to anguish,
Bow my head and cry alone.
pretty cool huh? it just came to me. my friend is going thru some rough stuff right now and this poem just felt right to post. the saddest thing she said to me was: "i'd do anything to get him back casey. anything." that just reminded so much of myself over the summer. i got my heart broken too.
breakups arent easy. whit- i know you got my back on this one. but they make you stronger and they make me appreciate relationships better. college is coming up soon- yeah i know. in about six- seven months. i dont want to not date anyone now just because im afraid im going to lose them when i leave a half a year away from now. my big thing is: i dont want to regret anything. i dont want to look back on these past few months and wished i would have dated this one guy or not done yada yada or whatever.
i dunno. me and my friend had a huge talk tonight. made me even realize some things about myself as well. who knows. love is crazie. it makes people do crazie things. thats why i think we are so infatuated (<-- sp?) with it. its blinds you when you least expect it. my advice to you is take a chance. date that guy or girl and see what happens. dont look back and realize that you could have had a really good thing. tell those special people how you feel. you may never get that chance again.
i love you all.
sleep tight.
just a lil poem for ya...
ALONE
I didnt want to admit it,
It was easier to lie,
And hide the hurt and emptiness,
To smile instead of cry.
I didnt want to face the fact,
My life is full of pain,
And I long to stop my bleeding heart,
And maybe smile again.
'Cause I feel oh so forgotten,
So betrayed and so alone,
Without a trace of forgiveness,
And no soul to call my own.
I didnt want to admit the fact,
I cannot spread my wings,
And my happiness has melted,
Into tears and other things.
Its hard for me to hide the fact,
My wishes have no home,
And return to anguish,
Bow my head and cry alone.
pretty cool huh? it just came to me. my friend is going thru some rough stuff right now and this poem just felt right to post. the saddest thing she said to me was: "i'd do anything to get him back casey. anything." that just reminded so much of myself over the summer. i got my heart broken too.
breakups arent easy. whit- i know you got my back on this one. but they make you stronger and they make me appreciate relationships better. college is coming up soon- yeah i know. in about six- seven months. i dont want to not date anyone now just because im afraid im going to lose them when i leave a half a year away from now. my big thing is: i dont want to regret anything. i dont want to look back on these past few months and wished i would have dated this one guy or not done yada yada or whatever.
i dunno. me and my friend had a huge talk tonight. made me even realize some things about myself as well. who knows. love is crazie. it makes people do crazie things. thats why i think we are so infatuated (<-- sp?) with it. its blinds you when you least expect it. my advice to you is take a chance. date that guy or girl and see what happens. dont look back and realize that you could have had a really good thing. tell those special people how you feel. you may never get that chance again.
i love you all.
sleep tight.