Mysteries unsolved...
My brother is moving back to New York City very soon... he wasn't as happy here as he might be there, and he will be starting Blue Man Group in April anyway. At that time, who knows where they will send him? Stockholm? London? Toronto? Vegas? He has no idea, and I think he is right in spending his possible last days in this area for some time in the city he loves. :) I will miss him, but I, as ever, have my own life. Bringing me to that point...my life is good; I have the most loving boyfriend, I am healthy (I run close to an hour almost every day, plus bike, do yoga) and I severely cut back my smoking. (I had 1 cig yesterday, none yet today. I have money, and I am still working at EB, but I am seeking my passion. This is what is giving me some sadness. I have tried so hard to find what it is that makes me passionate as a career, and it has been so difficult. One solution is that I need more education as soon as possible. Also, I need to realize that I may not entirely love the idea of spending even 40 hours a week in one place for who knows how long. It seems so constraining and the antithesis of a free life. Still, I am a person who values discipline and being productive, and I am not usually lazy, so this shouldn't be as difficult as it is. I had my reasons for shirking medicine, and pursuing English and Theater, but the truth is that all of those topics intrigue me, as does psychology, crime, law, visual arts, music, architecture, child care, teaching, humanitarian efforts, culinary arts, and so many other subjects. I am just good at change! For example, my new favorite genre for reading is the graphic novel (aka comic book). I have devoured no less than 8 of them in the past few weeks. Isn't this the basis of life? We are constantly in flux, and yet seeking a state of balance in every aspect. I will leave it at that, for now, but I will say that I am wishing the best to all of you out there, sincerely, I love you all, and am glad that you are in my life in any capacity. :)