i cant decide (an update on my life)

[casanovious]

...if i am in a good position or a bad one
if i am doing the wrong thing for myself
or the right thing for someone else

to go against my newfound philosphy
and do something for someone else

or stick with it for the time being
do something good for myself
and take a lovely break from it all
but fuck it,
the harder i try to detach my self from everything having to do wtih it
the more i am tempted to go against my broken social buddhism

theres two people i need to talk to right now: bh,th

and however that conversation will go, there will be a third.

my life has been going "pretty good for quite a while now, and [I'm] certainly much obliged"

hey im doin alright!

i could use a rooftop drink
a show at helios
and a _____ at agora.
with a weekend of nothing afterthat.