*sigh*
I put it on and as I was working I felt the cool metal against my warm skin. I toyed with it, my thoughts wandering to him. How is he doing? How is he coping life without us? What kind of person has he changed into? It’s funny that all of a sudden I feel guilty. We once promised each other that we will be there for each other in times of need and I felt as if I’ve deserted him in his time of need. What kind of friend does that make me? What kind of person does that make me? Does he hate me now? Do I hate him now? Hate is such a strong word, a word that should not be used to describe the feelings for a friend I’ve known for at least 4 years, close to 5 years. A friend that has been with me through thick and thin, a friend that has cried with me, laughed with me and shared so many more with me. Was it right to leave him to find himself? Was it right to desert him?
Has his heart been closed? Has he chosen not to open his heart anymore for fear of being hurt again? Has he chosen to shut all doors to us? Has he chosen to shut me out of his life? There is now an awkward barrier between us; perhaps things will never be the same between us anymore. Would there ever be laughter between us again? Would there ever be tender moments between us again? Has he become more sardonic or have I become more sensitive? Is his life so dark now that light can never penetrate it again? Has he found new company that’s better than us? Has he adjusted to life without us? Has he chosen to break all ties with us? Has he decided that we are just not worth it? Have we shut him out of our world? Have we chosen to leave him alone to find salvation without our help and guidance? Was it the right choice for all of us? Devils may cry but angels may cry too.
Through the nights I prayed,
Prayed that you will be well,
That you will not be in pain,
That you will be saved from hell.
Your loneliness fills the air around,
And I could feel it as the wind blows,
It grips my heart like a cruel hand,
Holding it tighter till it bursts.
Wipe your tears away,
As I will not sway,
If a hug is all you need,
Then you’ll find it here indeed.
Sometimes the tears blinded the love,
As you turn away from everyone,
You asked yourself the question,
Where has the love gone?
Love is not far away from you,
Do not dwell on things that destroy you,
You’re far too beautiful to be ruined,
By the cruel hands of fate and time.
I wish I could be swept by the wind,
To the place where you hurt most,
So that I could blow away your pain,
And see that smile on your face again.
Wipe your tears away,
And see sunny days,
Every thing will be anew,
Like leaves washed by dew.
Has his heart been closed? Has he chosen not to open his heart anymore for fear of being hurt again? Has he chosen to shut all doors to us? Has he chosen to shut me out of his life? There is now an awkward barrier between us; perhaps things will never be the same between us anymore. Would there ever be laughter between us again? Would there ever be tender moments between us again? Has he become more sardonic or have I become more sensitive? Is his life so dark now that light can never penetrate it again? Has he found new company that’s better than us? Has he adjusted to life without us? Has he chosen to break all ties with us? Has he decided that we are just not worth it? Have we shut him out of our world? Have we chosen to leave him alone to find salvation without our help and guidance? Was it the right choice for all of us? Devils may cry but angels may cry too.
Through the nights I prayed,
Prayed that you will be well,
That you will not be in pain,
That you will be saved from hell.
Your loneliness fills the air around,
And I could feel it as the wind blows,
It grips my heart like a cruel hand,
Holding it tighter till it bursts.
Wipe your tears away,
As I will not sway,
If a hug is all you need,
Then you’ll find it here indeed.
Sometimes the tears blinded the love,
As you turn away from everyone,
You asked yourself the question,
Where has the love gone?
Love is not far away from you,
Do not dwell on things that destroy you,
You’re far too beautiful to be ruined,
By the cruel hands of fate and time.
I wish I could be swept by the wind,
To the place where you hurt most,
So that I could blow away your pain,
And see that smile on your face again.
Wipe your tears away,
And see sunny days,
Every thing will be anew,
Like leaves washed by dew.