work it harder... make it better.

[carwrecksonata]

Hah, reading back I noticed the last entry was on the morning of November 15th, 2006. Haven't made an entry since I got the balls to ask an awesome girl to see mofuckin' Santa Clause 3. Even in May and August I didn't put entry's in. During these last like 9-10 months I've tried to write in here. It's just seemed impossible to write anymore. I've had so much to say and create about this last 10 months but I can't seem to get it out on paper/text.

I feel kinda like some part of me is missing again, like I can't get my witty lyrical venting anymore. It was something creative for once. I feel like I've lost any talent I've had. I almost never play guitar or keyboard anymore and I never play Cello anymore. I've lost all interest in visual arts ever since Harrison, I can't draw anymore. I try but I get irritated, lack of ideas, getting ideas and being unable to get it out on the paper. I never really had any sort of talent besides that.

I hope I can some how "rediscover" myself in Luisianna and form out and clean up what I am. Maybe something'll click and I can regain some sort of talent.

There's so much more I want to type but it's too jumbled and the mass is too damn big for me to type up without getting carpal tunnel or something.