fuckin shit im alone it sucks!!!!
i want her to be here even though she jsut right down the street..... she makes me think about what i do and what i feel i want it to work but its like she doesnt..... i cant tell you what she thinks but its jsut im scared and i know shes scared..... i want to be scared with her i dont wnat her to have all the feelings i want her to share them with me but she doesnt understand..... matbe im jsut an emo kid who cant be perfect but i know one day i will be free and no longer under the restrants of life life sucks ur not promised anything but to die...... how can you promis when the person you promis dont want to hear it because she is scared to get hurt....... pain is pysical and menatal thing you have to learn to overcome it its always going to be there so you have to deal with it...... you cant avoid it its there and its real rather you like it or not......
ive said things to make it worse and things to better the situation but nothing is good enough i really dont give up on things but this one is getting the best of me i dont want to hate but hate is jsut like pain you can feel it and love the person at the same time....... why does it have to be this way???? you cant take away what i feel for you by pushing me away it doesnt work like taht it jsut make me fight harder for what i want....... i wish i knew what you wanted ithink i kow but i could be wrong because im not you and im not in your mind......
i just want the chance to be with you when you not angry or pissed about somting.... but i can except that because i care about you rather you like it or not...... ijsut wish we could talk and be togeather..... tageather would be great but to jsut hear your voice is the best even if its on the phone i could jsut talk to you for hours at a time...... its strong and its weak......my feelings for you can be explaind but jsut in a wierd way that you would not get.....so i dont try..... its the hole giveing up thing.......i dont want to but its jsut what happens.....
i can sit and talk about you for hours and be happy i cna tell someone about you it feels great.....why cant you let me be that someone........???????? i want to be jsut let me have the real chance to be there and help you not even help[ but to jsut confort you...... if you told me to go away and it would make you feel better i would i would jsut give you your space jsut let it happen..........its now like 2:55 and im still thinking aout waht you said and why you feel that way about me...... i can see why but i just dont understand...... well this is what i want to say and what i feel it dont make sence because your not the same as me...... but yeah im bi-polar or however its spelt.......
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ive said things to make it worse and things to better the situation but nothing is good enough i really dont give up on things but this one is getting the best of me i dont want to hate but hate is jsut like pain you can feel it and love the person at the same time....... why does it have to be this way???? you cant take away what i feel for you by pushing me away it doesnt work like taht it jsut make me fight harder for what i want....... i wish i knew what you wanted ithink i kow but i could be wrong because im not you and im not in your mind......
i just want the chance to be with you when you not angry or pissed about somting.... but i can except that because i care about you rather you like it or not...... ijsut wish we could talk and be togeather..... tageather would be great but to jsut hear your voice is the best even if its on the phone i could jsut talk to you for hours at a time...... its strong and its weak......my feelings for you can be explaind but jsut in a wierd way that you would not get.....so i dont try..... its the hole giveing up thing.......i dont want to but its jsut what happens.....
i can sit and talk about you for hours and be happy i cna tell someone about you it feels great.....why cant you let me be that someone........???????? i want to be jsut let me have the real chance to be there and help you not even help[ but to jsut confort you...... if you told me to go away and it would make you feel better i would i would jsut give you your space jsut let it happen..........its now like 2:55 and im still thinking aout waht you said and why you feel that way about me...... i can see why but i just dont understand...... well this is what i want to say and what i feel it dont make sence because your not the same as me...... but yeah im bi-polar or however its spelt.......
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