Aaaa-a-a-a-a-aaaa-a-a-a-a-aaaalrighty Theeeeen...
Strike that. Strike that. Geoff WOULD go out with me. He asked me out last night.
Ahhh, more to the story.
Hokai.
Like I said, I've been hanging around with Si more and I've noticed he's "into" me again. And like I said, what the fuck. Friday night he was flirting with me. I can't talk, I was flirting back, but I was a bit tipsy and I like affection. This it had gotten to the point where I liked both of them but Geoff was obviously the better choice yet I couldn't help but flirt with Silas. I did with Geoff for a bit but he kept leaving. Moral: it confused me.
(Btw, I got Les to come and hang out, it was awesome. Dan made him feel out of place for a bit and I was worried but then we brought out the Jack Daniel's and I think everyone had a good time.)
So Saturday we were in the city all day, getting vaccination needles and going tanning and eating Perkins, I got back late, started my chores late so I could go over to Geoff's. I would have been hanging with Si that day but he was working. It was Geoff, Tara, Sean and G at his house. Since I came home drunk last weekend my curfew's back down to 10:30, and I left at like 8:45, meaning I only had like and hour and fifteen minutes. But I missed Geoff, something told me it would be worth it. So we sat in a dark kitchen for a bit and then went downstairs where everyone was watching Underworld. Eventually Geoff and I were on the bed, sort of on either ends. We kept tickling each other's feet, how lame. When G was the only one in the room, he got up, lifted his mug to us, winked, and closed the door as he left. Me and Geoff's hands were right beside each other's. I rubbed my pinky against his. He didn't pull away. We played handsie (?) for awhile, making conversation about the movie that we really weren't paying attention to (I think it was James Bond now). I eventually said I was cold and he said something about blankets and I flipped over and layed beside him. I put my hand on his chest, and he ran his fingers up and down my arm. More irrelevant conversation. Then out of nowhere he said, "Do you wanna go out?" in a really nonchalant voice. And I was like, "'Kay," in an even more nonchalant voice. Then we laughed about it. And then laughed about how I asked him to the dance on Friday at school (*Me taking a breath* Him: "Don't you have to go to band?" "Do you wanna go with me?" "To band?!" "No - to the dance." "Oh. I'm down."). Then we checked the time and I had to leave. So I straddled him and kissed him, and we made out for a bit, but I had to go. I tried getting up and he pulled me back down. I liked that. Then he let me get up and I went towards the door but came back and we fell onto the bed and made out some more. I tried getting up again and he pulled me down again and I liked it again. Eventually I left, though. I ruffled G's hair and then Geoff's mom gave me freshly baked cookies for the walk. I pretty much skipped home. Etc.
So I would be happier about this but I feel guilty for liking Si or even considering the fact that it's not retarded that he's into me. We're supposed to go on an adventure today (Si and I). I think it will be brought up in conversation. But I want to invite Geoff over to organize my tapes. I don't want to be with them at the same time.
This is why it was easier being friends with them and thinking that they wouldn't go out with me.
In other news, Kyleigh and I got into a fight. Well, it was kind of retarded. I guess I was spending less time with her and then she got kinda sad so I tried hanging out with her more and she snubbed me and then at Meals on Wheels she blasted her headphones and when a song ended I asked her why she was doing that and she played dumb and we had a little argument and it ended with "Why don't you tell me." *HEADPHONESSSS*, so I got up and left. Even though she's being ridiculous I still feel that I'm to blame so I sent her an email, and then she sent one back, and I sent one more, and she sent one more. She always needs to be right in an argument, the one who has the last say and the one who would get all the pity. I'll let her have it this time because after the guys are gone next year (they're all graduating), she's all I've got. She's not a side friend, I still love her, we're just not as close, and I'm trying to cram in a lot of hang-out-age with the guys because like I said, they're going to be gone. But I feel like an inefficient, horrible person because I can't make time for all the people I care about.
It hasn't really hit me that I'm dating Geoff. It seemed totally natural to make out. We did it once before, "as friends", in an elevator. I feel like I don't want to advertise it. Does that make me horrible?
I also have no idea why I was up before nine on a Sunday. Freaky thangs, mang.
Ahhh, more to the story.
Hokai.
Like I said, I've been hanging around with Si more and I've noticed he's "into" me again. And like I said, what the fuck. Friday night he was flirting with me. I can't talk, I was flirting back, but I was a bit tipsy and I like affection. This it had gotten to the point where I liked both of them but Geoff was obviously the better choice yet I couldn't help but flirt with Silas. I did with Geoff for a bit but he kept leaving. Moral: it confused me.
(Btw, I got Les to come and hang out, it was awesome. Dan made him feel out of place for a bit and I was worried but then we brought out the Jack Daniel's and I think everyone had a good time.)
So Saturday we were in the city all day, getting vaccination needles and going tanning and eating Perkins, I got back late, started my chores late so I could go over to Geoff's. I would have been hanging with Si that day but he was working. It was Geoff, Tara, Sean and G at his house. Since I came home drunk last weekend my curfew's back down to 10:30, and I left at like 8:45, meaning I only had like and hour and fifteen minutes. But I missed Geoff, something told me it would be worth it. So we sat in a dark kitchen for a bit and then went downstairs where everyone was watching Underworld. Eventually Geoff and I were on the bed, sort of on either ends. We kept tickling each other's feet, how lame. When G was the only one in the room, he got up, lifted his mug to us, winked, and closed the door as he left. Me and Geoff's hands were right beside each other's. I rubbed my pinky against his. He didn't pull away. We played handsie (?) for awhile, making conversation about the movie that we really weren't paying attention to (I think it was James Bond now). I eventually said I was cold and he said something about blankets and I flipped over and layed beside him. I put my hand on his chest, and he ran his fingers up and down my arm. More irrelevant conversation. Then out of nowhere he said, "Do you wanna go out?" in a really nonchalant voice. And I was like, "'Kay," in an even more nonchalant voice. Then we laughed about it. And then laughed about how I asked him to the dance on Friday at school (*Me taking a breath* Him: "Don't you have to go to band?" "Do you wanna go with me?" "To band?!" "No - to the dance." "Oh. I'm down."). Then we checked the time and I had to leave. So I straddled him and kissed him, and we made out for a bit, but I had to go. I tried getting up and he pulled me back down. I liked that. Then he let me get up and I went towards the door but came back and we fell onto the bed and made out some more. I tried getting up again and he pulled me down again and I liked it again. Eventually I left, though. I ruffled G's hair and then Geoff's mom gave me freshly baked cookies for the walk. I pretty much skipped home. Etc.
So I would be happier about this but I feel guilty for liking Si or even considering the fact that it's not retarded that he's into me. We're supposed to go on an adventure today (Si and I). I think it will be brought up in conversation. But I want to invite Geoff over to organize my tapes. I don't want to be with them at the same time.
This is why it was easier being friends with them and thinking that they wouldn't go out with me.
In other news, Kyleigh and I got into a fight. Well, it was kind of retarded. I guess I was spending less time with her and then she got kinda sad so I tried hanging out with her more and she snubbed me and then at Meals on Wheels she blasted her headphones and when a song ended I asked her why she was doing that and she played dumb and we had a little argument and it ended with "Why don't you tell me." *HEADPHONESSSS*, so I got up and left. Even though she's being ridiculous I still feel that I'm to blame so I sent her an email, and then she sent one back, and I sent one more, and she sent one more. She always needs to be right in an argument, the one who has the last say and the one who would get all the pity. I'll let her have it this time because after the guys are gone next year (they're all graduating), she's all I've got. She's not a side friend, I still love her, we're just not as close, and I'm trying to cram in a lot of hang-out-age with the guys because like I said, they're going to be gone. But I feel like an inefficient, horrible person because I can't make time for all the people I care about.
It hasn't really hit me that I'm dating Geoff. It seemed totally natural to make out. We did it once before, "as friends", in an elevator. I feel like I don't want to advertise it. Does that make me horrible?
I also have no idea why I was up before nine on a Sunday. Freaky thangs, mang.