i did it...
i called him and we spoke for over two hours which in contrast to some other phone calls isnt long but it was still good none the less. the conversatioon was kept away from anything personal which for now can only be a good thing...i sent him an email explaining myself and my thoughts but i have no idea how he is going to react and all i can do is wait and tryu and not worry too much...
today was one of those days...well so was yesterday but thats not the point...i kept walking out of my art class with the hope that i wouldnt be missed...i sat around the corner and tried to control myself, close to tears every fifteen minutes and i dont know why. i sat in maths,i cried inside and it was hard to keep a happy face for gabby...ian was at me all day to smile, he's one of the decent ones...drama was the only time that i was half happy...when im in that room im in another place... nothing is really real and thats what is so great about it...anything is possible without judgement.
i never meant for her to hate me, i wonder if she thinks i hate her, i dont but she probably thinks i do.
owells
today was one of those days...well so was yesterday but thats not the point...i kept walking out of my art class with the hope that i wouldnt be missed...i sat around the corner and tried to control myself, close to tears every fifteen minutes and i dont know why. i sat in maths,i cried inside and it was hard to keep a happy face for gabby...ian was at me all day to smile, he's one of the decent ones...drama was the only time that i was half happy...when im in that room im in another place... nothing is really real and thats what is so great about it...anything is possible without judgement.
i never meant for her to hate me, i wonder if she thinks i hate her, i dont but she probably thinks i do.
owells