Saying Goodbyes
Saying goodbye never gets easier, it only gets harder and more hurtful. We think that it will get better with time but, we are just lying to ourselves. I've said goodbye to so many knowing that each one is more painful as I go. People say their goodbyes more and more each day for so many diffrent reasons good, bad, sad, etc..etc...It only gets harder and harder as time goes on. People here that I used to work with know about me leaving but, I've turned them all down for "Going Away" parties. I don't feel like wasting their time besides, I see no point, I've just met them...I guess I mean that much to them, I doubt it. There is only one "Going Away" party that I will go to, and that is at my mother's house back in my state, CT. This Saturday.
My father has been a pain trying to get me to stay but, I know that I can't stay here. A fe...nay, many things have been happening at once, arguments and getting overally annoyied with Jess which...is new to me. I don't think thats happened to me until now, I don't know whats going on. She says she supports me going but, then she secretly holds second thoughts which I practicaly have to drag out of her whenever we speak, shes way to easy to read and to get to know, too easy. *Shakes head* I don't know anymore. I just want to be alone for a bit, look up at the night sky again back Home. Feeling the silence all around me and knowing that even though there is something, someone out there watching me through the trees, I can still be at peace.
-I will be in Southbury this Thursday until Saturday, maybe Sunday for those of you in CT. I want to be Home one more time so that I can have it fresh in my memory and be with my friends so that I have something to smile about-
Gerbil will be fine, I hope. I have to get him ready for his last and final move, he's already used to car rides thanks to his Father (me). He may hate me but, I know he really doesn't again, thats one animal that is pretty easy to read, every time I come home from either work (I'm back at Wal-Mart since last week and this week only, long story) or just running, he scrambles out of his little igloo, excited. He doesn't bite me anymore, just...pisses in my direction...where ever I may...be...*shrugs* I guess thats a "I love you piss" whichever. To be honest, this post, though it seems long in length, it really isn't as long as some of my other posts which are basicaly *counts on fingers and toes* well, umm...lets just say book length? Heheh, I've got to get some sleep, so, yeah.
Those of you in the area, why not come and visit my sorry ass and laugh at me while I work!!!! Electronics Department in Wal-Mart, Newburgh!!!!! Come on in and we'll kiss your god damn fucking ass!!!!.....Except me, I'll kick your ass if you ask me to kiss your ass, here, how about a swift size thirteen shoe up your damn ass and a fist in your nose!!!! BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITCCCCCCHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Time to go to sleep now, aahhhhh....buh bye!
Death is the ultimate dilemma and integral to the beliefs and behavior of every culture. Life is bore on the corpses of the dead. Without Death, there would be no motivation to accomplish anything. The only emotion would be existing. Life would be pestilent and agonizing.
-Matt (Me)
My father has been a pain trying to get me to stay but, I know that I can't stay here. A fe...nay, many things have been happening at once, arguments and getting overally annoyied with Jess which...is new to me. I don't think thats happened to me until now, I don't know whats going on. She says she supports me going but, then she secretly holds second thoughts which I practicaly have to drag out of her whenever we speak, shes way to easy to read and to get to know, too easy. *Shakes head* I don't know anymore. I just want to be alone for a bit, look up at the night sky again back Home. Feeling the silence all around me and knowing that even though there is something, someone out there watching me through the trees, I can still be at peace.
-I will be in Southbury this Thursday until Saturday, maybe Sunday for those of you in CT. I want to be Home one more time so that I can have it fresh in my memory and be with my friends so that I have something to smile about-
Gerbil will be fine, I hope. I have to get him ready for his last and final move, he's already used to car rides thanks to his Father (me). He may hate me but, I know he really doesn't again, thats one animal that is pretty easy to read, every time I come home from either work (I'm back at Wal-Mart since last week and this week only, long story) or just running, he scrambles out of his little igloo, excited. He doesn't bite me anymore, just...pisses in my direction...where ever I may...be...*shrugs* I guess thats a "I love you piss" whichever. To be honest, this post, though it seems long in length, it really isn't as long as some of my other posts which are basicaly *counts on fingers and toes* well, umm...lets just say book length? Heheh, I've got to get some sleep, so, yeah.
Those of you in the area, why not come and visit my sorry ass and laugh at me while I work!!!! Electronics Department in Wal-Mart, Newburgh!!!!! Come on in and we'll kiss your god damn fucking ass!!!!.....Except me, I'll kick your ass if you ask me to kiss your ass, here, how about a swift size thirteen shoe up your damn ass and a fist in your nose!!!! BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITCCCCCCHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Time to go to sleep now, aahhhhh....buh bye!
Death is the ultimate dilemma and integral to the beliefs and behavior of every culture. Life is bore on the corpses of the dead. Without Death, there would be no motivation to accomplish anything. The only emotion would be existing. Life would be pestilent and agonizing.
-Matt (Me)