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[carvdnbeautiful]

Its been a while since i Have felt like this. Probibly since brittany. I really feel like im falling apart, but the fun part is acting like everything is just fine. I just get drunk and forget how fucked up I am. Ive been listening to Kristy Lee alot and I have been listening to one song over and over... Its all about wanting so bad... but knowing you arent loveing me...you are just staring at me... the song inspired me to write some

Girl of my dreams when you whisper in my ear I want to be so close to you
Holding you touching you feeling your heart race
You are looking in my eyes right through me
I feel your warmth
intended for another...

Here are the lyrics to a song im writing:

Youve always been Gone by Aly

Its been raining all day
Doesnt seem like there is anything to say
your eyes so beautiful yet blank
your smile graceful yet fake

You move closer to me
your touch needed wanted fee
your voice low calm cool
I believe your tone Im a fool

before it began I knew you had left
just a shell I gave of myself
I should have seen inside
yet I looked the other way while you lied

from the start you were gone
I loved every second
but you were gone
You spoke I listened
but you were gone
gone
gone
gone

When it was over you walked away
I wont regret it to this day
Ill let you back in
I know my action sin

Everytime you pull me back
your charm, grace, beauty doesnt lack
I miss you when your light is gone
Ive even written you this song

before it began
I knew you werent there
I let you hold me
just me feeling much for you
before we begone we were through

From the start you were ggone
I love every second
but you were gone
you spoke I listened
but you were gone
gone
gone
gone

Your breath taking
I wont pull away
Ill let you hold me
even tho in time this will fade
youll no longer want me
ill be left missing you
but even tho youve never been here
Its been enough for me

Im working on the music so ill let yall know when im done with it...