Crochet does NOT rhyme with baby.
I had a dream the other night that eric came home. I was taking a silly little train on shiawasse headed towards eastern when I stopped to visit eric, edie, and kenny (because they are just ALWAYS on shiawasse, i love my dreams). It felt so real, and the dream slightly describes how I want my life to be like when eric comes home minus the shiawasse part. I'm just hoping that the 8th of november will roll around sooner than I can handle. I miss that kid so much. I didn't realize how happy I would be seeing that he finallly wrote me, and realizing his ability to not write is something edie and i both understand :x It's like I can't even function when he's not around because I've never gotten so close to a friend before without becoming their girlfriend, or ruining it by liking them.
On a more realistic note, I finalllly purchased a video camera, so that + vegas = my life.
On to the negative, I have so much anger built up inside of me that I'm not sure how to control. I hate almost every guy in my family for at least 20 minutes out of each day. I know it has something to do with how I was raised because I can't tell you how many times my dad flips out over the smallest raisin on his floor. It also has something to do with the fact that my family has this tendency to date the most idiotic men I've ever met in my life. Why? I wish I could answer that right now.
School is >_< I get the highest grades in Chemistry, my hardest class, yet I'm still somehow screwing up in my algebra class (which of course is my easiest class). I do love talking to some of the strangers in my class. They're slowly turning into friends and I like that a lot. Much more then others who still identify you as some homeless person. I also ended up bumping into the stranger who I used to be obsessed with. Someone who easily rose my confidence through each long phone conversation; however, still someone that I just couldn't get involved with because of intimidation. I don't understand how to get past that without making a "doctor" out of them haha. Just something that I will have to deal with on my own I guess. Something that I just don't seem to pay too much attention to because: four pointing college > anything else. Something I'm not quite sure I'll be able to handle.
This entry kind of cooled me down. I just might do it more often for the sake of my sanity. Reading also helps me out. I've started to make a habit of visiting the library and checking out as many books as I can carry (and of course I should add on the 60 some hours of 90210 episodes). Reading helps me fall asleep, so my sleeping habits are good during the weekdays. Otherwise I go with the am-sleep-time, pm-12-hour-later-wake-time. That's pretty good, too.
I should probably get back to writing about public transportation. You don't have to be homeless to ride the cata! You're probably headed that way if you don't :p
On a more realistic note, I finalllly purchased a video camera, so that + vegas = my life.
On to the negative, I have so much anger built up inside of me that I'm not sure how to control. I hate almost every guy in my family for at least 20 minutes out of each day. I know it has something to do with how I was raised because I can't tell you how many times my dad flips out over the smallest raisin on his floor. It also has something to do with the fact that my family has this tendency to date the most idiotic men I've ever met in my life. Why? I wish I could answer that right now.
School is >_< I get the highest grades in Chemistry, my hardest class, yet I'm still somehow screwing up in my algebra class (which of course is my easiest class). I do love talking to some of the strangers in my class. They're slowly turning into friends and I like that a lot. Much more then others who still identify you as some homeless person. I also ended up bumping into the stranger who I used to be obsessed with. Someone who easily rose my confidence through each long phone conversation; however, still someone that I just couldn't get involved with because of intimidation. I don't understand how to get past that without making a "doctor" out of them haha. Just something that I will have to deal with on my own I guess. Something that I just don't seem to pay too much attention to because: four pointing college > anything else. Something I'm not quite sure I'll be able to handle.
This entry kind of cooled me down. I just might do it more often for the sake of my sanity. Reading also helps me out. I've started to make a habit of visiting the library and checking out as many books as I can carry (and of course I should add on the 60 some hours of 90210 episodes). Reading helps me fall asleep, so my sleeping habits are good during the weekdays. Otherwise I go with the am-sleep-time, pm-12-hour-later-wake-time. That's pretty good, too.
I should probably get back to writing about public transportation. You don't have to be homeless to ride the cata! You're probably headed that way if you don't :p